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More Muse RPG-goodness! ^^ I'd started this a few weeks ago, but it kinda go shoved to the back burner for a while as other things happened in the RPG. Someone Else's Star, unfortunately, doesn't belong to me.
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It was good to be home. Flopping onto his bed, Ihsan looked around the room he had abandoned in a panic over two months ago. His eyes settled on his desk, his bookshelf, his papryus wall hanging--all a bit dusty, but he figured Om, or the thing controlling Om, didn't really care about controlling the dust bunnies.
Ihsan sat up, sighing. He knew he should go apologize to Daeva and Uvo for disappearing on them in the middle of the night, but he wasn't quite up to it yet. Despite the talk he and Daeva had had, he still wasn't comfortable with spending time alone with either of them. He didn't want to say or do anything he would regret later, like end up kissing his best friend, whom he had a crush on, in front of her husband.
That, and it hurt that they were together and he was left alone.
*Full moon tonight,* he noticed, looking out the window. The clear night would likely be a chilly one, considering it was the middle of January, but it was nothing compared to the Artic cold. Looking up at the sky, he saw only one star braving the dark. *Twinkle, twinkle, little star. Too bad I'm not really a kid anymore. Or innocent.*
Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
The stars are shining bright
So one more wish goes up
Oh, I wish I may
And I wish I with all my might
For the love I'm dreaming of
And missing in my life
No matter where he stayed, at home or at Miss Chibiange's, Ihsan could hardly turn around without seeing some evidence of his friends going on with their lives...together. One case in point was the wizard and angel sitting at the kitchen's island counter, pouring over floorplans to various apartments and small houses. They finally decided that they wanted to start a family in a place of their own. While he was happy for them, his heart ached for someone to look at him with the same joy and love that Melahel and Robert graced each other.
Those two weren't the only ones wrapped up in love.
He headed upstairs to the room Miss Chibiange gave him when he volunteered to help the tight-knit group after he spent a good several hours healing the harem of one of their number. On the way, he heard someone singing softly in the room next to his. *Seto, probably.* For some reason unbeknownst to him, Jou and Seto split their time between Luna's and Miss Chibiange's.
You'd think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I've got to believe
There's still someone out there who
Is meant for only me
Ihsan peeked through the door, the sight confirming his guess. Seto lounged in the bed with Jou curled up on one side, eyes closed. He was glad his friends had put aside the bad memories, especially Jou, and were pursuing the relationship they originally wanted.
Both boys had told Ihsan often enough that he was welcome to join them anytime, but Ihsan didn't want to intrude on his best friends this side of the Atlantic. They were clearly in love with each other and, despite their words otherwise, he always felt like an outsider butting in. Alienating them was the last thing he wanted.
Before Jou and Seto could notice their watcher, Ihsan slipped into his room. Zi's little touches made it seem like the room was lived in more often than not. The Healer walked to the window and gazed outside. There was no moon this night, but the stars were certainly more numerous than the last time he took in the night sky. It reminded him of the wish his heart ached to make, but his head refused to let him take that leap of faith. *It never worked before. Why should it work now?*
I guess I must be wishin'
On someone else's star
It seems like someone else
Keeps gettin' what I'm wishin' for
Why can't I be as lucky
As those other people are
I guess I must be wishin'
On someone else's star
It was only his first day of 'vacation,' and he was already exhausted. Not that he wasn't having fun, however. He enjoyed watching Theo explore the ship and Kitty try to draw him into having fun, but it was good to have some time alone to think. After all, he had promised Seto he would.
Dropping his things by the dresser, he turned the lights off and slipped out to his private balcony. There were benefits to having a demi-goddess for a friend. Thinking about friends, Ihsan's thoughts turned towards Jou and Seto. He cared about the two younger men a lot, but he couldn't shake the feeling that, however wonderful being with them had been a few weeks earlier, too much had changed for them to try anything that intimate again. Jou's kiss before he left confirmed it. And the fact that the Jou currently living with Luna was not the same Jou that he initially became friends with.
There was only one remaining question--how would Seto deal with all of this? Ihsan knew, somehow, that both he and Jou were not meant for a relationship. Seto loved Jou, he knew, but Seto also seemed to really enjoy his company. Hopefully, the CEO would be content with friendship.
I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
But I can't give my heart
One good reason why
Everywhere I look
It's lovers that I see
Seems like everyone's in love
With everyone but me
Smiling, Ihsan slipped into his room at Miss Chibiange's to drop off his luggage and souviners. The vacation had done wonders, even though he occasionally felt overwhelmed by all the people in such a closed area. Especially the number of couples on the cruise. Even though he had resolved his feelings about the two teenagers, it still seemed like Fate, who was a cruel bitch at times, wanted to torment him.
He fingered his ear, the familiar weight of his earring missing. His feelings about Jou and Seto were not the only things he worked out over the past week. The earring, along with a letter of resignation and several goodbye letters, were on their way to the small Healers' caravan he had once called home. Jalin and Uvo would understand and, hopefully, help Daeva and Om understand as well. Ihsan knew, unfortunately, there was no way to make the Healers Council understand his decision. Before he left home for the last time, Jalin made him promise to stay in touch and continue his studies, thanks to his generous gift to Ihsan of several rare Healing texts and a promise for more. That made saying goodbye all the easier.
I guess I must be wishin'
On someone else's star
It seems like someone else
Keeps gettin' what I'm wishin' for
Why can't I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh I guess I must be wishin'
On someone else's star
His talk with Jou went well, Ihsan thought. The bonus was stunning Jou into silence, which he figured didn't happen all that often. Though, it was understandable when Jou had revealed that he had agonized over just how to tell Seto and Ihsan that he didn't want a relationship with the Healer. For Ihsan, it was a relief. It meant that he didn't have to feel guilty over his decision to simply be their friend. He wondered, for a brief moment, how Seto had taken Jou's decision, but he pushed that out of his mind. Ihsan just hoped that the CEO was accepting of the decision, for Jou's sake.
A shout from the other room shook him out of his contemplation, beckoning him to the main room to share tales of his vacation and all the excitement of what happened here while he was away. He joined his friends, knowing that this was what he searched for when he was younger, as corny as it sounded.
Why can't I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh I guess I must be wishin'
On someone else's star
That night, Ihsan stared up at the night sky again, watching the stars come out slowly.
"Twinkle, twinkle, little star......"
~Fin~
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(Anonymous)
2004-02-14 09:18
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wow love the song ^-^ love the fic even more .*hugs* great going chiblet and it wonderfuly sets the v day mood. *gives you a hugglemuffin* (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2004-02-16 12:04
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I already told you this, but it's always okay to repeat praise, right? I like this a lot! Is very good...and of course that means you must write more! (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2004-02-16 12:04
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I already told you this, but it's always okay to repeat praise, right? I like this a lot! Is very good...and of course that means you must write more!
~Luna(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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