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| Current music: | My Sassy Girl OST - I Believe |
Love...
I need it. I need it so much. The people I love are the reason I get up in the mornings. I'm at a point where I can't imagine what it'd be like without them... It scares me so much to know that they will leave someday.
My emotional attachments to them are so strong... I love them so much. A number of them have become more than brothers to me. I think the term is "soul ties". I think I have become unable to say goodbye. When they do leave, I think it'll affect me in a big way. Just thinking about how we will go our separate ways... it breaks my heart.
I have a photo of my little-brother-I-never-had and me. I'm giving him a piggyback ride and we're both grinning at the camera. It tugs a heartstring everytime I look at it because I love the little guy so much. He's 17 this year, but I still love him like he's my bratty little brother.
I guess all this has been born from the fact that I crave love. I crave it with all my being, so entirely that I receive any iota of affection eagerly and dote and dwell on it for as long as it fulfills my void.
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 slack
2003-07-29 21:07
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hm. probably not the best time, but hello. i am a random user ((who frequently reads btc @ bollox)) who just went to the main site @ bollox for the first time.
i found your comic, and your journal. so, here's a comment.
as for the love thing... i know where you're coming from. the only reason i continue on the way i am, is because i'd never want anyone to miss me. i don't want to make people sad.
drop me a line, or add me if you want. hope you feel more cheerful soon.
<3-ness.
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