Char (char_hakkai) wrote, @ 2004-08-04 22:03:00

Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	Wang Leehom - Love Love Love

"oh, look at all the lonely people..."
Leehom Wang is fun.
He's one of the very few artists I can listen to in Mandarin. o_< As a general rule, I can't stand to listen to that language sung (no offense to anyone!!). But he's got a nice voice, and the music is...fun.
Anyways.


Long shift at work today: 12-9 between my two jobs. Things were pretty slow, though, so I had some time to do some thinking. This, of course, usually tends to be a bad thing...
One of the guys I work with today came in FLOATING on Cloud9. I mean, he was singing and smiling and giggling all day long. ^_^; Turns out he met this guy a few days ago and they've been going out ever since. Listening to him go on about it...I don't know why, it made me think about something that happened yesterday. And that got me thinking, what is it with people and relationships?
I mean, David's the happiest person in the world now that he has a boyfriend.
On the other hand, a certain someone is extremely upset at me because he thinks I'm what's keeping him from seeing his girlfriend.
Then there's my sister, whose adventures in romance I've been hearing about for four years now.
There's the divorces and remarriages I've watched my parents and the rest of my family go through. Watching all of this makes me wonder if relationships are really worth the trouble of even thinking about.
Not that it's something I really have to worry about. >_>
I don't know, I've always said that "boyfriends" and "girlfriends" are stupid, and in the way that most people mean it, I still think that. I really don't want to go out with someone just to say I'm not single anymore: that's pointless. Meh, this isn't really making sense.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I realised that I really am a little lonely.
I'm not complaining; not like there's anything to be done about it, it's one of those things that just "is."

Sorry for ranting. I'm not making much sense. ^_^;
I'm just a little upset, maybe, and a little tired.
I think I'm going to have a long shower and a cup of chammomile tea.

earthgoddess 2004-08-04 22:43 (link)

I understand what you're saying, and I feel you my friend. I'm in the same boat. It's just the way things "are". I know alot of people that are like your David. It's just strange to me. Well, I just wanted to give you a hug or something, so... *Hugs* Everyone needs a hug once in a while! On a completely different note, I finally found how to read the old Random posts on Delphi. I'm having fun reading them! Hee hee! I'm getting alot more insight of the past now! (Reply to this) (Thread)

bajone 2004-08-05 02:30 (link)

Wow, Char. Thanks for being open like that. And you know you can rant for me anytime you need to. ^_^ I am feeling the same way you are most of the time. Whenever I get lonely for comanionship, I just seek God and find my comfort in him. I also think about my life, how it constantly changes: I'm graduating in December, hopefully going to Japan shortly after...As much as I would love to have a boyfriend right now, at the same time I don't want one because I don't want to have that possibly hinder me from seeking my dreams. God has the right guy out there for me somewhere and as cliche as that sounds I just know it to be true and hold onto hope that Mr. Right will find me soon. Until then, God is preparing both of our hearts and lives so when we do meet, we'll know for certain we're the ones for each other. I know he'll do the same for you. You just gotta trust him. Besides, you're young and single living in a great city. Without a man, you're free to oogle over every hot guy you see. And there's even time for fantasy comas. :P (Reply to this) (Thread)