Aspiring Novelist (cattleprod) wrote, @ 2005-06-03 02:14:00

Current mood:

angry

Finito.
I have no idea how it went from zero to 60, but it did. Somehow we went from pleasant, loving conversation to fighting and arguing. I was getting angry, telling her I was getting angry (in a stupid effort to let her know how I was feeling) and she responded with, "That's good. GET angry, motherfucker."

That was the straw, baby. I said, "Good night, that's it." and hung up the phone and turned it off.

I don't care HOW angry I get at her, I would NEVER EVER say, "Fuck you!" (she's said that to me 3 times). I would NEVER EVER even use the word 'motherfucker' in anger toward her. Nor would I call her a bitch in the middle of an argument just for the sake of insulting her. Really, is that something you'd say to the one you loved? Under any circumstance?

I can't do any more. I can't. I've tried. I've been so frigging patient it's unreal at times. And still for her to turn on me like this...it's too much for me to take. I am through.

Fuck it. It's one of the leading causes of stress in my life, anyway. Perhaps it's been a horse with a broken leg for far too long already.

just...fuck it.

	before_dawn 2005-06-04 20:30 (link)
	damn that sucks read your other posts on the other journal too. ouch. good luck with all the homefront stuff this weekend. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cattleprod 2005-06-04 22:24 (link)
	thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nomin 2005-06-07 16:00 (link)
	Sorry to hear that man best of luck on figuring things out (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cattleprod 2005-06-07 16:18 (link)
	Hey, dude! Thanks...I'm working on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nomin 2005-06-07 22:27 (link)
	I swear every time I stumble back to blurty to see where things sit - you've posted after months of silence and it's a tornado or something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cattleprod 2005-06-07 22:32 (link)
	You know I'm over at LJ, too, yeah? I really just come over here to read friends' journals...and not very often. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nomin 2005-06-07 22:55 (link)
	that's what I do as well. What name are you under over at LJ I was lucky (or obssesive enough) to retain the same from here to there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)