Evening
{other post was so long! sorry I made a new one..hope that's okay :(}
I laid next to Boone in bed as I watched the sun set from my window. My eyes drifted towards my bags on the floor and saw Charlie's sign still sitting there. I laughed a little. I made a mental note that I had to give it back to him one of these days.
It was getting colder and I pulled the blanket over me to stop from being cold under neath I took off my shoes and made myself comfortable for the night or at least tried to. I couldn't stop moving around. He was making me nervous. I knew why I just didn't know how to ask him what I wanted from him or needed. I was going to gain his trust back and if fighting my own temptations was part of it then that's what I had to do.
I moved my body rested my hands under my head and looked at him.
"Do you think I'm pathetic?" I asked him out of no where.
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 charlie_is_lost
2005-05-08 22:06
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After Shannon left, I grabbed my journal. I traced my fingers over the cover for a while before opening it to read the second entry... one made several months after the first.
Was an odd day of sorts. Had my weekly confession to the priest... seemed shocked, you know, behind his usual demure character. Don't need to repeat it here. I've confessed it once... seems logical. Was an exciting night though... in both senses of the word. But I told the priest that I have to leave the band... as this lifestyle will not ever be good for me. As I was leaving, Liam had his feet propped up in a pew. We squabbled about it, but he waved a paper in my face.
And my heart is still pounding. We BLOODY got SIGNED! Liam and I, we're going to be bloody rock gods! It's finally paid off, gig after gig, trying to get someone's attention. Liam and I made a deal. When I say stop, we stop. I don't know if he'll actually keep to that, knowing he promised me five pounds when I turned ten, and I'm still waiting... but it's worth a shot.
And you know, I actually picked up the phone to call Rebecca. I got halfway through dialing her number and then realized what I was doing. I slammed the phone down angrily and turned up my music and blared it for a while, getting her out of my head. The minute I turned it down, Liam called, asking me to go out for a few drinks and some clubbing... and he's here now...
I shook my head. God, I was an idiot. I remember bits and pieces of that night... and the next morning, woke up with a girl I still don't remember... I sighed and tossed the journal back into my bag. I leaned over and grabbed my guitar and started strumming random island-sounding chords...(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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