|Current mood:|| pissed off|
Depression Under Construction
Hello journal, it's me again. I don't think I had an exciting day today, my so called friend Alyse is like so rude now. I mean I use to always hang out with her at lunch and stuff all the time until she started to hang out with Jessica and now they leave me out. Rude huh. So instead of being pushed away I decided not to talk to Alyse NE more, I herd her calling my name in Math today but I pretended like I didn't even hear her. I always ask myself what does Jessica have that I don't. Why does aylse like her better. I mean hello jessica is so fucking stupid I mean I seriously can't stand her she think's she's the shit but sometimes she can be alright. I know I sound a lil jelous and stuff but I'm really not I mean she is like so rude all the time now like shes been mean to kris and he really likes her I know she likes him to but keeping her thoughts on the down low because Jessica might have something to say. I don't get how people can be like your best friend one minute and your worst enemy the next. I guess what go's around comes around and Aylse will get it I gaurantee that shit. But NE ways other than that school was mormal and life still sucks Christmas is just around the corner and I feel like crying because I dread the day it comes. I HATE CHRISTMAS. It's not about the gifts because I always get a shit load but I don't . . . . want it to ever come I wish I could go to another world and then come back when it was all over and done with. I bet your thinking i hate a lot of things and guess what your right. People think my life is fantastic all the time and I get everything I want but they don't realize that I'm not what they really think I am. They act like I don't have feelings and stuff but I'm just human as they are. A lot of times I feel like crying because I miss my BEST FRIEND kris so much and I wont get to see him until January when I move back to Colorado Springs. It's been about I'm guessing 8 months now, I talk to every once in a while which is good but yeah. I'm going to wrap this up and save some of my sorrow until tomarrow. See YA (Write a Wonder).