Tigerlily (brighterdays) wrote, @ 2003-04-18 16:07:00

Current mood:	confused
Current music:	Coldplay-"Trouble"

Return of the Hell in a Handbasket
About a million things happen in the course of a few days. I dont want to talk about them much.

In fact, I dont feel like talking at all.

I have not felt like it in a couple days. So today I didn't.

Umm... happy thoughts, right. Today is my grandparent's 50th wedding anneversary. *waves a little flag*

Sorry... my thoughts are on the downtrodden side. So bite me if you have a problem.

Told someone that I didnt want to talk to them at 10 last night, and hung up. I guess I feel bad, but the way she started the conversation really rubbed me the wrong way.

"I'm sorry."


...

You know what, I dont give a fuck who feels sorry for me because I dont need their pity. I am a Hell of a lot stronger than they think I am. If all they see is a little girl here, they have another thing coming, and its going to rip them a new one.

Am I angry? No, honestly I'm not, I am just genuinely confused and anti-social. Thats what happens when I dont understand something. Im human, and I dont think anyone should have a problem with that.

... Come to think of it, if they do they can go get bent. XP



I know I am sounding really unfriendly right now... downright mean or angry... Im not. Im just sad and confused, like I said. I dont understand myself half the time, and I think I need a little more time to get things through my thick skull than most others. Sue me, I have problems.

Maybe I just need more sleep...

I dunno...

goodnight.

-Lilly

barimoney 2003-04-18 19:26 (link)

okay sweetie dont go on a sleeping kick. You know that dosent solve anything. You need to not sleep and no matter how much you dont like it, try to work this out. I know im starting to sound like a selfrightious bitch but hey im entitled because i care about you and i dont want you to fall in a hole like i have and am about to again. get out whail you can man. >< god i hate myself. why the hell am i even taking the time to type this when its just going to be taken poorly. im not going to say im sorry because i know thats conceved as pitty to you so ill just say hey wana go fuck the world with me?? god forget this shit for some reason i think that was nesecary... thats what i get for thinking huh. *gos off to kill self* (Reply to this) (Thread)