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now
understand
why do my actions need justification
its clear that at this moment
no one understands why
why i'm still in touch with her
still there for her
still care for her
still apart of her life
she has hurt me
And has destroyed a part of me.
That is something
i will not deny
I am different
but I'm still the same person
with the same convictions
so
blame it on being blinded by love
blame it on being stupid
blame it on being selfless
She was my world for more than a year
She was everything to me
I may have lost my self
in her
but i didnt lose my faith
the things i will always believe
the person that will always be
buried beneathe
And as that person
i cant
i cant just leave her
when she needs me most
I could
Just like everyone else has
But as the person I am I really just can't
So punish me for being who i am
for just doing all i know
and Punish her
for living
and being the only way
she has ever known
or ever been shown
because as much as everyone has chosen
to see the worst in the both of us
we are the only ones
who can help each other
change
become
learn
whatever it is we need.
it will never be
the same
and i don't think
i will ever be able
to love anyone
the way i loved her
again
I've let her go
I've let us go
she isn't my world
and i'm not blinded
This thing this reason
isn't for love
or that i am inlove
helping her through
what she is going through
is so much bigger
than me
or what we were.
i lost her
but it was never about me
everything that happened
and i can't let her
throw her life away
just because of me
she deserves the world
she deserves to live
she deserves to be happy
she always has
and i just want her to have it
how do you teach someone
they deserve to live
when their whole life
they have been taught
or shown otherwise
how do you teach someone
to deal with their issues
when they don't know how
ppl go through shit every day
yes i know
i've heard it over & over
well i know i'm strong enough
for this
And she isn't
No one will ever know her
the way i do
or get her
the way i do
ppl can believe
it's me trying
to get back together
me still inlove
me being blind
i don't care
because this is not about me
or what ppl think i want
she is my friend
and as a friend
i am doing
what i would do
for any of my friends
I'm being there
the way I need to be
The way i should have been
before
we both are
I'm not expecting anyone
to get it
and I don't care that ppl dont
this can look
however anyone wants it to
try to understand it
or not
all that matters is that
we are saving each other
she has saved me
with the truth
and i have saved her
with my presence
and unconditional love
it makes absolutely no sense
believe me i know
I didn't know who i was without her
and she didn't know who she was with me
we're probably closer
now
more than ever before
unfortunately it was
too late
to save us
but it wasn't too late to save each other
and we're doing the best we can
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(Anonymous)
2008-05-14 00:29
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i love you for always putting others before yourself
for caring when you really shouldnt
for being there for the one person who has broken your heart
because you want her to be ok.
you are amazing and I appreciate you one million times more
for doing what you are doing.
you're just beautiful kat
so beautiful
any person would be so lucky to be yours
i know i wish i was yours :)
i miss you kat
claire
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(Anonymous)
2008-05-18 21:37
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i just want you to know that im here for you and that i love you.
after reading your reasoning and explanation i realise now, how unfair I have been and how much i probably hurt you with all the things i said. Your right. you are exactly right. You have this beautiful way of just caring and making ppl feel so appreciated and you always have. I was angry and hurt for you. I said some really horrible things. there is no excuse for it but I'm so sorry for forgetting who you are. seeing you hurt & heartbroken is the worst thing in the world to me but i realise now that the way i hurt you just for being the beautiful girl you are was so uncalled for. Forget all the bullshit i said and do what you need to, to fix your heart. no one will ever understand the way you do.
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