| Current mood: |  crazy |
| Current music: | Goldfinger - Open Your Eyes |
Frequent entries? Insanity
Back on my last night thought train.
I am not in the worlds best mental state, and I simply do not know why. I want to be normal, or something, but I can't be. I should be at work right now. They've called twice. I slept in. I don't know how. The alarm should've gone off, my mom should've woken me. I don't remember either. I don't doubt they happened though.
I think part of my problem is I talked to S last night. Told him things he doesn't need to know. Like that my work friend that I'm sleeping with, or rather have been, because I'm certainly not doing it right now, anyway... He bites, and I like it. Maybe I like pain too much. maybe I have some sort of mental illness. maybe i have multiple mental illnesses. illness.... I'm sick! *giggles*
I don't even know what I'm babbling about. I want to disappear, never come back. I want to hide in the crawlspace with all the other useless junk my family keeps.
sell you from birth for all that you're worth...
maybe i'm not worth what they're trying to sell me for. ... maybe...
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