_<3_//(( davii ))\\_<3_ (blessedtoiboi69) wrote, @ 2003-10-09 19:53:00

Current mood:	amused
Current music:	tori amos- 1000 oceans

the words i wrote in my personal journal
life is such an inperfect place...
i feel as if i live with lies and hate.
the ones that quate "they love" say lies at which are words of calm.
why are lies calming words?
arent they just words that lead to terrible trouble in life?
the ones who hate and express that anger are the ones who tell the horrible truth.
in which i feel so rejected from?
theres a border in my life that is keeping me from my tru goal.
is there a purpose for me in this world?
i tend to ask myself that question quite frequently,
and yet the more i ask it the answer become more of a blur
i fear from life and this is only the begining
are those who say "life gets tougher as u go on" telling the truth?
if so, then personally i might not be able to handle it.
life is such an inperfect place

-david salinas

^ that was one thing i wrote today after skool
oh and by the way.... i wrote that bcuz this stupid lil homophobes at my skool were tauting me bcuz of me being gay!

now cums the next one... and i started to think about this one when i got in the bus bcuz i saw this boi from hi-skool who i thought was cute and ummm he seemed kinda gay.... so i thought about this....

i believe that love is so easy and free, or atleast i use to believe that.
maybe i havent even experienced love yet.
a pretty face, a pretty smile, thats all i needed to like sum1
never have i felt that feeling that ppl say they feel when love is in the system
pretty faces and even personality dont satisfy me any more
as i grow older and weaker i feel as if love is harder to find.
is love just a tool that i use to get away from fear?
maybe i use to, because now i even fear love
"true love is when he gives u a piece of ur soul that u never knew was missing"
stages in my life have been hard and cruel and love has always been there to help me up.
but now the love is over and i fear terribly that when love comes to me it will be a difficult passion to conker!

-david salinas


ok well now im actually feeling alot better since im talking with sum1 who is very honest! so i dont fear from this kid.... y should i fear from the truth?

hi aplayanotalova 2003-10-11 00:03 (link)

just wanted to say i like the way you describe your day in such detail that i can picture every thing you have a great gift because ive come across alot of journals and none really opened my eyes sorry didnt mean to read your journal but a friend of mine you commented on her journal so i took a look at your journal and you seem very cool and wanted to say your your own person and what people say at school is stupid dont ever let it get to you and dont even let it bother you for a second because people like that are only getting at one thing and thats to hurt you so dont let it hurt you ~Aprile (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: hi blessedtoiboi69 2003-10-11 13:15 (link)
	hey thank u very much for all ur great blessings.... and yes its ok, u can read my journal anytime... <333 ill add u if u want, ok? and once again thank you! -davie (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)