Anj (nothingoutthere) wrote in bisexual, @ 2003-05-26 19:52:00

Current mood:	thoughtful
Current music:	t.A.T.u - Not Gonna Get Us

why why why
Why do I get so attached to people? I got super duper attached to Priscilla. Amazingly attached. It was going great. And then I asked her to be my date to my friend's sweet 16 and everything went from great, to hell. Jess, the girl that had the party, is gay, also. So, Scilla, wanting to be nice, decided that she'd become friends with Jess just because she's going to the party. I'm pretty good friends with Jess. Turns out, Jess has fallen for Scilla. Friday was the most dramaful day ever. Scilla ditched me for Jess a number of times. There was so much drama. So much he said she said. Jess and I ended up getting into a heated argument about he said she said stuff. Scilla was getting mad because people were talking about her for a number of days now, and I was just so unhappy because of the drama. It was stupid drama and I didn't need it. So, on Thursday and Friday, I guess you can say that I had been acting different around Jess and Scilla. Scilla more. And Scilla noticed, and asked me what was wrong. Had I told her right there, it would have ended on my part. I told her I'd tell her later. Nothing was going right. I blame Jess for it. She would interfere all the time when Scilla and I were alone. She cut class for Scilla. SHe was in the middle of us. But I blame Scilla for letting her. And I blame myself for not saying anything sooner. Jess would say that Scilla was "amazing" right to my face. I got mad. I admit I got jealous. Am I wrong? They were always together! For a few days. So then, I called Scilla friday, we ended it completely. We aren't seeing each other anymore because of the super amount of drama we both have and because of the mental state that we are in. We aren't doing too good individually. But I think that Jess is the reason too. I think Scill likes Jess back. I told JEss that night that Scilla and I were officially over, and she goeS "i feel like a real scumbag, but can I have her number then?" I was about to flip. And then she had the nerve to ask if I was still going to her party. Are you kidding me? I asked if there was something going on between her and Priscilla. She said "Not Yet." i asked if she liked Scilla... her response? "Im not going to urge anything, but I will not prevent it either". Hello?? We JUST broke up! So, I shouldn't care if they go out, right? I mean, whatever makes them happy. But Jess, a friend? I think not. The way she was just lke "Can I have her number then" was just a big turn off. What do you guys think?? I guess I kind of just miss Priscilla... I should not have gotten so attached. I feel super stupid. I just miss having someone to talk about in my life. I mean, I am 17... what made me think that it would *last*? Ahh help!

darktiger 2003-05-26 22:19 (link)

hey, that sounds terrible. i think that it's only human nature to get attached. i think you had the right to be jealous. look on the bright side. there is someone out there just for you. they right now are thinking where is that someone for me. it takes time to finally meet these people who need us. it is even worse that we get our hearts broken while we look for them. in the end after being through heart ache and pain, when we finally get that person we are greatful. it all works out for the best. just hand in there. it will be ok. best wishes -TIGER (Reply to this) (Thread)

	a_perfect_mess 2003-05-27 18:15 (link)
	awwwe! that is horrible, im so sorry! but i dont think you should feel all that stupid, i mean, its pretty much human nature to become "attached" and i know its terrible. and im really sorry you miss someone to talk to! i can relate very much on that part, and i know how it feels. good luck and i hope everything works out!!! well, sorry for such a lousy comment. (Reply to this) (Thread)