Benjamin L. Madden (benjaminmadden) wrote, @ 2003-08-08 13:06:00

I'm back home now. Heh. For a while 'til we gotta jet over to the UK an' do the tour then tour again wi' Mest this fall. I missed Brody for the ohhhh - three days or so I was gone. I walked in this mornin' prolly 'round 7. Brody was was still asleep an' I didn't wanna go in an' wake her up even though all I wanted to do was crawl into bed an' hold her, so I went into Nathan's room. He woke up the moment I walked in an' I thought for sure he was gonna start cryin' or somethin'. Amazingly, he smiled at me. HAHA. It's always nice to walk into the home an' be greeted by an innocent smile of your kid.

I picked him up an' changed him before goin' downstairs an' feedin' him his bottle. He's at the age now where he can hold the bottle all by himself so I sat on the couch wi' Nathan layin' in my arms an' drinkin' his milk. Funny thing is, I wasn't even watchin' TV, I sat there starin' down at Nathan an' watched him devour his breakfast. I felt this urge to go outside so I walked out onto the beach wi' him after changin' him into some regular clothes. My kid pimps his MADE clothes.

I sat down on the sand wi' him an' held him there on my lap wi' his back to my chest, watchin' the waves roll in an' out an' this wave of peace juss stole over me. I never fail to feel that sereneness everytime I'm wi' Brody or Nathan. I'm happiest at home wi' them. Actually, I'm my happiest anywhere wi' them so it does kinda suck tha' I gotta travel the world without 'em. The only thing that keeps me movin' on an' movin' on is the thought that I'll be comin' home to them at the very end of it all. Tha' I'll walk through the doors of the house an' be greeted wi' a hug an' kiss from my wife or just a smile from my son. I love havin' a family. It's the most positive thing in my life. My family's the fuckin' best, I ain't exaggeratin' that. Why my dad got sick of his own family, I'll never fuckin' get it. I'm always tryin' to figure it out an' I guess I should stop cause there just ain't no point in it. My dad did what he had to do an' even though I'll never understand it, it was his decision. But I know I could never do that. I don't have it in me to juss up an' walk out on my family. It's juss... it's wrong.

I love you, Brody. :)

	xxre_jaxx 2003-08-08 22:22 (link)
	I wish I had a family. A wife and a son or jus' a daughter. When you walk in see them smile at you. It'd be great. You've a wonderful wife,she wouldnt dare to hurt you ever cause she loves you like that. and you're son.I know it's not your real son but you're doing a great dad. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	brody_arms 2003-08-09 14:42 (link)
	I love you so much Benji. You have no clue how much you and Nathan mean to me. You guys are my everything. Dont worry about your dad, he just doesnt know that he left he best that could ever happen to him. His family. I know you wouldnt leave us, just like I wouldnt leave you. You guys are my world, how can anyone leave the world. I love you Benj. (Reply to this) (Thread)

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	Re: FAKE gc_chris 2003-08-16 10:10 (link)
	you juss made yourself look like a fool. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jessi_s 2003-08-14 21:02 (link)
	- Coughs - And obviously you're a dumbass or you'd have read the disclaimer and seen that this isn't real. So HAHA! yourself. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sarah_denmark 2003-08-15 09:25 (link)
	Yeah, I'm with Jess, this is a RPG.. every fucking person knows that.. SaRaH (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wtf pyrochik44 2003-08-17 02:30 (link)
	ok, wat the fuck is the point of this roleplay shitt that u ppl r doing? if anyone is making a fool of themselves it would be u people,ur fuckin up som ppl's head wit this shit,they read it and actually believe it because not everyone has common sense....fuckin weirdos... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: wtf benjaminmadden 2003-08-17 04:18 (link)
	If people read it an' believe it then obviously they don't read all of it otherwise they'd see it was fake. And why the fuck would you care if this was roleplay? You have nothin' to do with it so why don't you shut your hole? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: wtf jessi_s 2003-08-17 15:59 (link)
	Obviously you don't have common sense or you would have seen LIKE I SAID BEFORE! That we tell people this isn't real! Wtf do you think that disclaimer is for? Dumbass, maybe if you'd read shit, you wouldn't be so fucking confused. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	SORRY!!! erinmadden 2003-08-20 13:49 (link)
	sorry, I didn't see the disclaimer I didn't know it was one since it was labeled "Shut the fuck up" or something like that! but I read it, I think roleplaying is kool, I hope there's no hard feelings Erin. (Reply to this) (Thread)