Becka (becka_roo) wrote, @ 2004-04-09 01:23:00

Current mood:	satisfied
Current music:	nothing...i'm too tired

"Be good...and try not to die..."
In light of the shit that's happened, tonight could not have been more perfect.

Yesterday is still with me. I don't know that I'll ever forget it. Especially now that I know...that I know who did it. It all makes sense. The way I would constantly catch him staring at me...It still send shivers up and down my spine just thinking about him, and the constant intensity of his face. I never saw him smile. Not once. I wouldn't have guessed that he would do something so offensive, but Mrs. Murphy did say that I wouldn't have guessed it was him anyway.

Things have got me thinking recently. But I am pretty sure I would rather not think. No lo me gusta. Pues, yo soy feliz que paso aqui, a La Salle...pero es importante que no occura nada mas.

*sigh* yo suck at espanol...blah.

But after this week and these disappointments and this happiness, and this wonderful-ness...I am exhausted. More than you guys can imagine I am.

I still am reeling from Wednesday. And I'm reeling from some of the not so positive responses. What absolute suckage. I got to talk to Sarah and she was like, "blahblahblah..." and I was like, "blah! blahblahblahblah." Whatever...I'm leaving tomorrow and it will all be behind me for a few days at least. And don't feel shy to email me a little something (that's not junk mail). Frankly, I would love it.

I can't believe it all made me feel like crap. He made me feel like crap. THEY made me feel like crap. What a joke. What a stupid asshole. The moral of the story is that I honestly love Sarah and I love Will, Dan'il, Jeff, and Oreo/ Scott (hahaaha ^_^)'s company. Really. We should make more excuses to hang out. It was great fun. Especially now that the weather is getting warmer. Awesome awesome. And tonight just reinforced the premonition I have that Dan and I will have such a fun time at Prom. Seriously, he's one of the best people I know...we're so going to have a superfun time. And oh...poor Jeffy. He was so tired...I felt bad...but at least he got to be Moses...and at least he went to bed at a semi reasonable time...I hope. So yes...Happy Easter and Happy Passover, kids...just in case I don't get to really say goodbye to my faithful readers tomorrow...

I really really am looking forward to this trip.

And I can't help but wonder what I ever did to him to make him feel like he can be an asshole and not think twice about it towards me. I have a feeling it was the same that thing mad...

I should go...I'm insanely exhausted, both emotionally AND phyisically. Good night...I don't think this entry has much of a point or is very coherent, but hey...life just happens like that, son ways.













I will never forget these past few days. I really never will.

	marshallmosis 2004-04-10 13:07 (link)
	Blah! I din' know you were leaving Bekah... I would've come over... and... and... oh no! Well... if you get this... feel better. I le you, and have a wonderful time... wherever the hell you are. -Mar... oh well I guess I signed in. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: becka_roo 2004-04-12 16:35 (link)
	lol. I le you boi. (ps...I'm in mississippi with my sista and mi amigo jorge. and i really told you like 100000000 times how excited i was to be coming here, silly person.) k bye. :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)