Becka (becka_roo) wrote, @ 2004-04-07 20:55:00

Current mood:	loved/ sad
Current music:	Kissing You ~ Des'ree

"I'm not going to let you......................win. Not win."
I have out talked myself today. I have been so tired these past two weeks that today absolutely wiped me out. I'm done. Done with the work. Done done done.

I was thinking about today, and I was thinking about the good things of today...All the bad stuff seems like it was weeks ago, and all the good stuff just happened. Barlow and Jeffy were so great today. Amazing. Really, guys...And William, too...hot damn, I have awesome friends. To see them offended for me, and in general...it was so great. That support...Dan'il, Dan P, Claudia, Katy, Vero, Steph, Tash, Rachel, Sarah, Sarah...Pat, Evin...no one is luckier than me when it comes to friends. So many people gave me real hugs today. It helped me feel so much better...And lunch and that after-lunch walk Barlow and Jeffy and I took was so great. It was so awesomely sweet to have Will and Barlow both looking out for me in their own ways, with their differing opinions. And when they were talking about me when I was right there...I wanted to laugh, but had no energy too. It made me smile, though. Even the teachers were great about it. I have such a great new-found respect for Mrs. Murphy...seriously...

I've been so over-tired recently...Is it bad that I wasn't impressed with some people today?...I mean...I don't know...there are some things people said that was so inappropriate...It makes me appreciate my friends so much more...It stresses me out still to think about those people's faces and comments...what a long day. I need sleep. I need a superhug. I want a back massage. I don't want to do my work...seriously...really don't want to do it. I want to banish this annoying headache of mine. *sigh* That's my wish list. Most of those aren't doable at all.
I also wish my father would treat me with more respect. I really do. He treats me like such crap sometimes. Because I need to feel worse about myself today. Hoorah for awful timing.

Whatever. At least I have my friends. My friends are the best in the entire world. Thank you a million times over, you guys. You all are so amazing. Like woah.

P.S. Caitlin...you are awesome. End.

(Anonymous) 2004-04-07 20:20 (link)

hey becka. ahh ignorant kids. i hope the therapy helps him. really, for his own sake as well as yours. bro. williams was like, "that kid should get the hell outta this school 'cause he has no place here." i'm sorry i'm such a bad friend. :( i wish i could do more... sarah p.s. i was right... i'm NOT going to the prom, hehe. told you. oh yeah, and i hope you work things out between you and your dad. i know how you feel. my mom makes me feel like crap a lot too, like i'm the worst daugther in the world. which i prolly am. maybe cause i argue with her so much. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: becka_roo 2004-04-07 21:30 (link)
	sarah you are seriously a closet evil person. but i love you for it. and you're completely not a bad daughter...i can't see you arguing much with anyone...i love you. thank you. and you're a wonderful friend. no lie. love you much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2004-04-08 16:37 (link)
	Yeaaahhh i know it...i AM awesome arent I? hey its not an easy job, but seriously, who else could do it?! Becka we are like two not so greenish peas in a green green pod. and i really hate when it's so fustrating and hard like this, but we know how to deal. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: becka_roo 2004-04-08 23:41 (link)
	Yeah we do...it just makes it a crap load easier when we have friends like we do... and hey, you've always got me. so it's all good. :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)