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Yay. Let's go 03. Demon, once again!
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Note: I am extremely discontent with grades. It's all my fault, and it's been there since fourth grade(at the earliest that I can remember). Yeah. Not happy with any of my classes(except for art). I can get straight 'A's and a 6.0 if I did study for five minutes everyday and did my homework, but no. I haven't started my homework before 9 o'clock this year. Ever.
This I can say: I am not going to go to a UC. My mom's pushing me towards it too much. I feel like rebelling, and I am going to rebel. I want to be independent because I want to get something done. I want to be forced into doing something that is the norm for others, and not relying on my parents as much. In other words, give me a job instead of saying "A person who can't complete schoolwork can't have a job; your grades'll fall." How many times have I told you that it's not going to make a difference? How many times have I told you that I don't work at all at home. How many times have I told you that it's not Northgate that's hard, it's my idioticy.
I'd be really happy if I have ADD or emotional problems. Then that would mean that I'm more capable of doing things. Dang, I don't know how much I cried today. Probably enought to fill a bottle of water.
I repeat: I am not happy with my grades. I am not happy coping with my grades. I want to graduate. You don't know what senioritis is. I don't want to be compared to other people. You won't understand this inability to start work. I don't know why I don't say this to your face.
Ah, it'd be so swell if there was a swearing session. I want to, but I told myself I'm not going to in public.
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(Anonymous)
2004-06-05 01:52
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Don't say you wish you had problems like ADD or something, then you won't be the crazy person I know and love. I know you don't show it around when I'm around, since you're all crazy and happy go lucky when I come over, but if you want to just vent or something, and you need some kind of audience, e-mail me k?
Hey, heard you're going off to DVC or something, but hey, two years of that, and you can choose to continue your studies or go off and work. I may even just skip college and get an apprenticeship or something, who knows. If it works out, it's good right?
Well, I'm here for you, you ever need a friend, just really call me or anything.(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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