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never ever.
i have never...
been to therapy
been on medication
done drugs
been convicted of a crime
had asthma
had a drug or alcohol problem
the recruiter says I shouldnt have done any of those things, so Im telling him i havent.
i have...
always paid my taxes
always loved this country
i will not have...
any piercings
any tattoos that show in uniform
i am...
single
young
i will...
be physically fit
be able to run a mile in 15min
look good in a uniform
be investigated by the FBI completely before i enlist.
forget my past hopefully all the bad, even though i don't see myself forgetting you, ive tried.
attempt to move on with my life in a positive way
start brand new
travel and experience the world
save money
have money to get my masters
live on naval bases around the world
get my shit together
be successful
make my grandma proud of me
make life long friends
make the best of this opportunity
become an adult
make the best of these next 4 years enlisted. hopefully more if i love it which i see myself doing.
stay sober not just because i have to but because i hope to substitute everything that ruined me with real actually living.
be happy.
get all my friends addresses and write them all the time.
send my friends gifts for their birthdays and holidays.
fly my friends out to see me as much as i can so they may experience the world with me whenever possible.
Be all that i can be.
Never forget tattooing, but ill have my doctrine practically paid for.
I will be successful, I will.
never forget my family and friends.
run away from my problems in a responsible way.
appreciate life more everyday.
listen to music still.
work my ass off.
dedicate my life to protecting this country.
have the chance to get over my baggage.
be able to life in new york!
i may not ever love again but i refuse to feel sorry for myself any longer, this is about me, im so young and ive wasted enough time slacking of. i need structure again.
as hard as it is to say i thank you for leaving me. its forcing me to grow up. i could have never left without you leaving first. im a single adult with no one that loves me so i have the freedom to leave alone without any hesitation of guilt for leaving someone i cant stand to be away from. love has abandoned me. i will not let it ruin me like it has before.
im grateful. im blessed to have my health and my smarts. im ready.
im tired of wasting time. i dont know how long i would have here, every day kills me. i need to get far far away.
i love my country and ive always wanted to prove it.
this is my big break. im excited. i want to leave asap.
I am joining the Navy. No one thinks its a good idea but I couldn't be more excited.
I hope to ship out ASAP, but with the dui thing pending it might take 10months. I hope the recuiter's letter to the judge will hopefully help me wipe the dui and get to ship out real soon.
i wanted to get to Japan. i will.
i wanted to get to Greece. I will.
i wanted to go to Spain. I will.
I want to go to Europe. I will.
U need to see it all. I would have loved for you to visit me in all those places, on me. now it doesn't seem plausible. how weird.
I'm going to stay clean and out of trouble, not only because i will be owned by the government but because I'm over this stupid game. I have been for so long but the temptation will always be in this town. I hate it, I don't need it anymore.
you're happy. I'm going to make myself happy the only way i know how, run away and pretend nothing happened, but at the same time, enjoying to world like i could never have done with the guilt of leaving a love, leaving a friend.
Out of sight out of mind. Forget me completely if you haven't already. I'm leaving this feeling, I'm leaving you, I'm leaving. I couldn't be more happy. I cant wait to start living again.
"I can feel it in my bones
Gimme sympathy
After all of this is gone
Who'd you rather be?
The Beatles or the Rolling Stones?
Oh, seriously
You're gonna make mistakes, you're young
Come on, baby, play me something
Like, "Here Comes the Sun"
Come on, baby, play me something
Like, "Here Comes the Sun"
i still think of you everyday.
i hope that will change.
SO, Oi! sweet dreams love. Best wishes etc.
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