Emma (babygirlxox) wrote, @ 2003-08-23 20:33:00

Current mood:	excited
Current music:	Wherever you will go - The Calling

Run away with my heart...
It's Saturday night and I'm home by myself, again. At least I get to see Chris tomorrow, I just hope it doesn't rain. That would ruin everything.
I went to Alyce's last night, got home this afternoon. We argued almost all night and I ended up talking to Chris on the phone and she talked to Amy on the phone. We made up in the end and called Nick and Brendan..And, her Nick hooked up! I'm happy for her.

This morning Alyce and I were talking about death. She misses her Aunt Gretta, and I miss my Mum. Alyce reminded me of all the fun we had with my Mum, it made me laugh and cry. I miss her so much. I don't think I will ever understand why she had to die.
There used to be this lullaby she used to sing to me and by brother. Everytime I think about it I imagine her singing it in my head and it makes me cry. The pain in my heart hurts so bad and I can't stop the tears. Memories of her hurt so bad, and it feels like she is slipping away from my memory.
Alyce told me that since her Aunt died she worries that everyone else around her will die too. I feel like that alot too. But I am tring to just live each day out, whatever happens happens. Life really has to go on.. I just hope and pray I will see Mum again someday.

I'm trying to put my thoughts down here but all I can think about is Chris. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. I have a present for him. It's nothing much, just a little something that used to be mine. Awhile ago I was going througha hard time and my Grandparents (bless them) gave me a Guardian Angel pin to watch over me. Chris does not feel safe at the moment and I thought he might like to have my Guardian Angel pin. He calls me his angel too so I think it would be nice.

Well, I'm going to go and take a shower, Chris is supposed to call me later.

Please pray it doesn't rain!

xoxoxox

	(Anonymous) 2003-08-25 01:29 (link)
	we're mother hens! lol u will see ur mum again, u know that. love you (Reply to this) (Thread)

	babygirlxox 2003-08-27 03:09 (link)
	Lol, Mother Hens ;) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2003-08-25 06:13 (link)
	awwe, that is such a cute pressie to give chris em, i'm really sorry you have to go through that. i know what it's like to feel pain i go through pain everyday. and i'm glad it didn't rain! mikki (Reply to this) (Thread)

	babygirlxox 2003-08-27 03:10 (link)
	*hugs* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)