Never sleep
Sometimes I wake up crying because I think that I am having a dream- more like a nightmare-In my dream I think that I was with you and that I loved you but then one day you were gone. And all I could do is cry and cry but no matter how much I cried- you were gone.
I cant sleep, and my life means nothing to me without you. Things that made me happy don't really do much for me any more. You made me happy. But I ask myself- why I was never good enough for you. To this day I have never been able to answer that question and I've never been able to figure out why you left me. My life's gone downhill because I lost the one good thing I had in my life. That was you. I guess I will just keep crying until the day that I die. I'll keep crying for my lost angel. I miss you so much. I think I'm going crazy. Or maybe I went crazy a long time ago. I keep writing letters to someone who will never get them, someone who will never know, but most painfully someone who doesn't care at all. Sometimes I feel like dying from the pain but then my body has no choice but to be on this earth- solid and broken. I walk around empty, with a hollow echo that surrounds me. I never thought a person could die of a broken heart. But perhaps someday that will be proven wrong. But why I keep hurting myself I don't know. You don't even remember me. do you know what it feels like to love someone who doesn't know u exist? it just may possibly be the saddest thing i know. sadly no one knows any of this and all i can do is bottle it up inside.
sometimes I think to myself maybe this is all just a bad dream- or perhaps i just imagined you but then the dull ache in my chest reminds me just how real it really is.
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(Anonymous)
2003-11-30 08:51
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my god stop, stop, stop!!!!!!!!!. love is a wonderful and beautiful, but half love or love going one way is not love.
don't waste time with, if only, if only, if only....... the great thing in life is that always a new lover comes along, soon sometimes rather that later but always shows up. dwell not with if only but what will be.(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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