Sometimes I wake up crying because I think that I am having a dream- more like a nightmare-In my dream I think that I was with you and that I loved you but then one day you were gone. And all I could do is cry and cry but no matter how much I cried- you were gone.
I cant sleep, and my life means nothing to me without you. Things that made me happy don't really do much for me any more. You made me happy. But I ask myself- why I was never good enough for you. To this day I have never been able to answer that question and I've never been able to figure out why you left me. My life's gone downhill because I lost the one good thing I had in my life. That was you. I guess I will just keep crying until the day that I die. I'll keep crying for my lost angel. I miss you so much. I think I'm going crazy. Or maybe I went crazy a long time ago. I keep writing letters to someone who will never get them, someone who will never know, but most painfully someone who doesn't care at all. Sometimes I feel like dying from the pain but then my body has no choice but to be on this earth- solid and broken. I walk around empty, with a hollow echo that surrounds me. I never thought a person could die of a broken heart. But perhaps someday that will be proven wrong. But why I keep hurting myself I don't know. You don't even remember me. do you know what it feels like to love someone who doesn't know u exist? it just may possibly be the saddest thing i know. sadly no one knows any of this and all i can do is bottle it up inside.
sometimes I think to myself maybe this is all just a bad dream- or perhaps i just imagined you but then the dull ache in my chest reminds me just how real it really is.
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my god stop, stop, stop!!!!!!!!!. love is a wonderful and beautiful, but half love or love going one way is not love.|
don't waste time with, if only, if only, if only....... the great thing in life is that always a new lover comes along, soon sometimes rather that later but always shows up. dwell not with if only but what will be.
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