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dearest helpless (apfelkeks) wrote,
@ 2003-12-02 14:23:00
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    Current mood: anxious
    Current music:Tristania - "Of ruins and a red nightfall"

    geist-seele-wille-zelle
    I feel weird.

    My hands are all cold and my teeth are shivering. I dont wanna go to this therapist.

    where is my mind?
    surely I've lost it ...

    ((there's no beauty in what I am, what I do, what I say and what I think. there's no hope, no kindness, no deception, no reality.))

    I ... need ... people

    f

    r

    i

    e

    n

    d

    s

    .

    .

    .


    but there are none ...
    and I tell myself I'm okay with it
    take the razor blade and forget it?
    no, I don't want to.
    yes, the blade helps, of course, but nothing can make me feel okay with myself
    nothing can take the fear that chokes a smile on my face, smile on my face, smile on my face, runaway, runaway, runaway

    creepy little thoughts, whispering of pills, blades, drowning ...

    what happened to me? where did I lose myself?

    I want to live, do I not?

    it's an aggressive kind of not caring, it hurts, maybe even destroys ...

    I'll shut up.
    ((get a life, girl, sorry girl))



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machi_sama
2003-12-02 08:55 (link)
hey gal!
You did not read my comment bellow? Did you?

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