the.softest.words.can't.heal.the.deepest.wounds. (annearbour) wrote, @ 2003-01-10 00:02:00

Current mood:	cynical
Current music:	Time Spent Driving -Your Arms,The Blades

Well it snowed today :D i was soo happy, cause i got my snowboarding boots today, and im going snowboarding with emmy and maybe sam tomorrow :D aww i love those kids there super duper cool! and im soo happy about going to see my chemical romance and finch with mallory its gonna be soo good.:) i need to get a new leash for my board.. i need to take it out for a walk!!! lol.. well i do need a leash for it and a stomp pad. i love my new board im soo excited about tomorrow. i dont wanna go to school tho. i got some more art supplies so im gonna be painting soon, i love painting even tho i suck at it! i love drawing too and i suck at that also. i just dont have as much creativeness as i did before. like in grade 9, i was super crazy and was really outgoing with my art and even my whole outlook on life, and then things started to suck and my life didnt shine as brightly, and now im dull and have a general negitive outlook on life and i think my art is showing it. plus lack of motivation i have no desire in anything anymore, and i hate that about myself, after i found out how cold the world is,and had all my dreams crushed like a small animal, i started analyzing it and then i was like.. why bother.nothing ever changes.. or at least for the last 2 years it seems this way. anyways thats my whole outlook right now. i leave you with this..
Boardwalk dream all boarded up
another souvenir made to be broken
chasing the sun isnt my kind of fun.
i'd rather sit and catch snowflakes on my tongue,
when summers gone i wont be sad
as you cling on to all the good time that you've had
'cause beding alone isnt areally all that bad
**The Ataris**

	(Anonymous) 2003-01-10 00:08 (link)
	people change, take a chance, i dare you (Reply to this) (Thread)

	yes... annearbour 2003-01-10 12:18 (link)
	Yes people change, ive changed for the worse i believe, i am not soo naive anymore. i found out the world is an non-loving place... so yah i would take a chance if i wasnt so scared of being hurt? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

(Anonymous) 2003-01-10 17:50 (link)

changed for the worse? no. definitly not. simply because someone becomes more conscious of his or herself and in the process becomes depressed definitly does not mean that they've changed for the worse. perhaps consider that your new found self is more attractive to certain people than your old self. some people believe that more emotional stricken people are far more attractive, beautiful, and intelligent. in which case they would try their hardest to treat the person they care for with the sincerity, respect, and *love* that they deserve. sometimes you have to let go of everything else and let your heart lead you, take a chance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

changed for the worse- definalty. annearbour 2003-01-11 00:24 (link)

love. i know not such word. take a chance on what? letting my heart lead me? thats what ive always done and it just gets me in trouble or hurt. it doesnt matter now. Besides in this town i really dont have much respect for any guys. they're all about the T&A which i got but dont flaunt. and sluts.. which im not for sure. they dont have respect for women or anything, unless you know something i dont about this town then tell me differently. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)