|Current mood:|| discontent|
my first entry
The primary use of this journal will be a source for me to vent my problems. Not that i have many, but i have nobody here willing to listen to me bitch and moan all the time. I can't believe i forgot how to use html, i know the general idea of it but i forget the codes and tags. I guess it's good i'll be able to catch up in somethihng. I want my online journal to be pretty too.
Living in Florida is a lot harder than i thought it would be. I have so many issues that just seem to go unresolved. It's not that i am unhapppy here. I's just has a lot of things that are missing. In Canada i had a job and a family and sense of safety. Here, everything is so unknown, i have no job and the only family i have is Jeremy. Jeremy is my fiancee. I love him dearly and he is the reason why i left. While i don't regret my decision to live here, i do feel a little bit of emptiness. Although if i had stayed in canada with everything i had, i would have had that same sense of emptiness without Jeremy there. This odd scenario kind of soured something special. I understand know one travels through life without out any worries, sarrow or heartache but these circumstances can be unbearable at times. Some times are easier than others and for now i am just trying to hang in there and hope things get simpler for me.
The great news about the first problem i have is i am trying to resolve it. Even with nobody here besides jer to talk too, i am venting what't been eating away at me and maybe this will improve things. I want this to work out, i wouldn't be trying so hard if i didn't believe in this. So maybe i'll have a more level head with this journal here to aide me. I know it's a cheap subsitute for someone who listens but it's all i got right now.
Let the venting begin....
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