!&%$_weird0 (ad0rable__) wrote, @ 2003-08-04 17:00:00

Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	evanescence - qoinq under

lonq time, no write heh
hey everyone .. i kno i kno..i havent written in a lonqqq time! AND i dont even feel like updatinq now. to start off, im sinqle. dont ask, dont wanna tell. i love beinq sinqle, i like about umm 5 quys? at the moment. heh .. i hate beinq attached, it means no flirtinq, which i love. umm amanda is on vacation now, i miss her. soo ive been chillinq with sum other ppl .. hmm not alot has happened really. actually alotta shiit has been qoinq on, but its too personal to write in an open journal for anyone to see. maybe if my journal was friends only i would..which im thinkinq about t0o! heh any suqqestions? o wellz! ive been depressed lately tho .. some personal reasons aqain. but one of my best friends naomi has helped me thru alot and i love her soo much .. she really has. she always listens to my problems and believe me, i have alot..well, hiqh skool is close ;[ im scuurrred! im quna be this lil freshman qurl, and most likely qet jumped everyday!! lmao lisa [<3] like seriously, cause i do have an attitude problem and i have been known to qive those famous "dirrty" looks. eh watever .. and there quna call me poser and all that shiit, im not up or it. i hate it, i depsise it..im terrified! i'll have to qet over it, and be brave, i suppose . . . . this summer has been kinda borinq. most of my dayz are spent at home, online..beinq bored outta my mind. or over amandas house..either or. i miss soo many of my sk0ol friends, its not even funy. and our qreat, kRaZi, fun, hilarious timez! hahaha they were the best. i miss lauren, and nancy and amy! all my bestest buddies . . . last nite was fun tho..adam and mike called me and i was talkin to them for awhile, hmm there really nice and cool, i quess i consider them true friends .. not best, but nonetheless "true". anywayz! i have a sonq that i wanna post now .. its really meaninqful to me atleast and its about my ex...soo jus read it, like it, love it, hate it. fuck! i dont care..i fuckinq really dont care. im like fuckinq flippinq out for no reaon riqht now, i think ive qone insane 0R i have split personalities! i think i do, like seriously. ok, here the sonq.
ahh im in love with this sonq <33!*

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Evanescence [ qoinq under ]

now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaminq deceivinq and bleedinq for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thouqht i'd reached the bottom
i'm dyinq aqain

i'm qoinq under
drowninq in you
i'm fallinq forever
i've qot to break through
i'm qoinq under

blurrinq and stirrinq the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusinq the thouqhts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dyinq aqain

i'm qoinq under
drowninq in you
i'm fallinq forever
i've qot to break throuqh

so qo on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken aqain
i've qot to breathe i can't keep qoinq under

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later quys

	boredomreigns 2003-08-04 18:51 (link)
	I like Evanescence too, that song reminds me of how I felt about my ex (maybe even now my current girlfriend, long story, when ya got time and you wanna read up its all in my journal, just have to go back a bit). Argh, I'm rambling. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ad0rable__ 2003-08-05 19:06 (link)
	evanescnece IS really q0od! jus qot the cd t0o =] that sonq probly reminds alotta ppl of their ex`es, its jus like that kinda sonq . . hmm (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	banginxshawtix 2003-08-04 21:12 (link)
	lol im the same way...i LUV 2 flirt =) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ad0rable__ 2003-08-05 19:08 (link)
	omq me t0o!! heh flirtinq is way too much fun to ever qive up ;] later babe (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pinklexii11 2003-08-09 12:09 (link)
	hey i am helping my friend out i saw that u like adema there is a community called adema_fans go cheak it out right now there is like no one but if' u can help my friend out that woulf be grad! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2003-08-27 15:57 (link)
	ahh u cracka ! its britt going under is my fuckin song im like in love with amy from evanseance .. haha jsut though i shoudl say that . (Reply to this) (Thread)