TaUnI :0) (aawenz_shortahh) wrote, @ 2003-10-13 13:58:00

Current mood:	loved
Current music:	Aaron telling me he loves me going through my head

My Love..
this w/e....man. i can't put into words how i feel right now and how i felt then. it was sooo amazing. i lost my parents trust and everything, but it was soooo worth it. being w/ Aaron was the best thing that has ever happened 2 me. i don't think there has ever been a time where i was as happy as i was this w/e. every lil thing that Aaron did 2 me and w/ me made me fall more in love w/ him each second that i spent w/ him. i was w/ him 4 many seconds 2 so i bet most of u can juss imagine how great my love 4 him grew. Friday night...wow....meeting Aaron 4 the 1st time. i thought i was gonna be sooo sooo nervous and scared, but i walked right up 2 his hotel door....knocked on it and gave Aaron a big hug the second i saw his handsome self. he was such a sweetie pie.....carrying in my big ol bag w/ a dead body in it (lol....some very nice memories w/ that big w/ Bob...hehehe :-P). we walked 2 that car and he grabbed my hand and kissed it. oooooo it was sooo sweet. we cuddled a lil bit in the car and then we headed 2 our lil restaurant place where we all had ALFREDO! mmmmm!!! sooo soo good. my lil sweetheart paid 4 my dinner...awww! i love him. then we went 2 the beach and that was romantic. my baby sittin up on the wall....w/ me standin in between his legs. Aaron kept kissin my cheek, forehead, neck, ear....lickin and suckin on my ear......sending love waves down 2 my toes O:-). hehehe....yup! then he moved my head by pullin my chin towards him and right then and there.....he gave me my 1st kiss. i swear....i was sooo horrible, but o well. i liked it. it was perfect 2 me 4 a 1st kiss :-). we all then walked into the arcade thinger and Chris was playin some games....so Aaron and i sat outside and cuddled on a bench. i started gettin tired....so i begged Chris 2 go take us home and everything and he did. but b4 we left the arcade.....Aaron, Bob, Chris, and i got 2 watch some dude show off his dance moves on this dancing game. wow! talk about showing off. sure.....i told him he was good in all cause he was.....but he was doin a lil 2 much. Aawen didn't wanna dance like that 4 me :0(. o well. he held me and that was better than him dancing 4 me. we then got in the car and i laid my head in Aaron's lap and fell asleep w/ him running his fingers through my hair. awwww....geeze i loved that. we got 2 the hotel and brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! it was sooo cold in that hotel room that i thought i was gonna turn into an ice cube. i jumped in that bed and put the blanket around me so fast and mmmm....Aaron came of course and put his arms around me. i almost fell asleep again, but i seriously needed 2 take a shower. so i dragged my big ol bag w/ a dead body in it into the bathroom and took a shower. hehehe......i get outta the shower and there's water EVERYWHERE! i was all scared Aaron was gonna get mad and yell @ me.....but no. he laughed @ me instead. i had no towel 2 dry off w/ because it was soakin wet from the Noah's ark flood that i created (lol). but that's ok.......i got Aaron all wet instead. so then i came back out and watched tv while Aaron took his shower. his sexiness came out and crawled into bed w/ me. we were lyin there watchin tv 4 a lil bit.....and i kinda started dozin off so Aaron turned off the tv and lights and juss decided 2 cuddle w/ me the rest of the night. uggggh ohhhh! hehehe.....that didn't go according 2 plan. c....i have this thing....where i turn my loover ONN and iono....i juss can't help myself. so we did our thang bout 1000 times. hahah....NOT! we didn't do it THAT many times. then we juss cuddled 4 the rest of the night.....even though i couldn't fall asleep until 6 in the morning. yesss....then my baby boy and i woke up around 10 or 11 (i 4got) and we juss laid around and cuddled until about 2 when i had 2 start gettin ready and my lover had 2 take his shower. hehehe.....the night b4...i had been suckin on my baby's tummy and neck and we both woke up 2 a BIIIIIIIIIIG and i mean BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG hickey on Aaron's neck. i felt bad but it looked sexy on him. so yess O:-)! then i started puttin my make-up up and i thought it would be sexy if my baby had some eyeliner on his nose....so yess......i put some eyeliner on Aaron's nose. then when i was all ready....my lover and i started kissin and suckin and yesss. we did this thing that i like 2 call "the movie pose." where i was layin on top of my baby....and i had my hair 2 1 side of my face and we were kissin. mmmm....it was perfect. then he carried me all around the hotel room. 1st he juss carried me....then it was bride and groom style....then i gots a piggie back ride!!! yayyy!!!! lil monster was gonna drop me though....i swear. he might not want 2 admit it....but he was goin 2! theeeen.....Bob, Chris, Aaron, and i all went 2 the mall 2 take sexy star shots. the guy who was takin the star shots was a lil....umm....weird...? yeah...he kept flirtin w/ Laura and me and he told us 2 tell our boyfriends not 2 be jealous. psshhhh....HE was the 1 jealous. then my baby and i took ohh sooo cute pictures w/ ohh sooo cute poses. they turned out yuckie (cause of me), but i don't care. my man was hella sexy in them and that's all that matters 2 me. FYI- i have lots of wallets if ne of u want 1....or 2 (cause we got 2 poses). my tummy started hurtin really bad when we all went 2 get some food. my baby had 2 finish my pizza 4 me because i couldn't and yes. so the rest of the mall experience was spent w/ my baby pushin in on my sore tummy. b4 we went 2 go pick up our pics....we all went into some jewelry shop so that Chris could get a new lip ring thinger. Aaron sat on a chair and i sat on his lap in the store. "Suga Suga" came on and Aaron and i were...."dancin." lol....i wouldn't know what 2 call it cause my tummy hurt 2 much 2 actually dance w/ him. then after we got out pics and everything....we all went 2 go c a movie. we saw "House of the Dead" or something like that. STUPIDEST movie i have EVER seen! but o well. i wasn't really watchin it ne ways. i kept lookin @ my baby....and kissin him.....rubbin his chest...and tummy.....and lots of other areas O:-). my legs were in Aaron's lap...and i took my shoes off....so the kid next 2 Aaron was probably all grossed out w/ all our kissin and my bare feet near his legs. heheh....o well. i thought it was sexy. Aaron was being bad and he kept pullin my skirt up so that old man next 2 me could c my butt. tsk tsk tsk lil boy! i stole Aawen's hat and wore it the rest of the night. i was a sexy trucker man...o yesss! then hmmm.....Aawen carried me 2 the car....4 like...2 feet. then i made him put me down cause some chicks in the car could c my butt. then....we went 2 starbucks and loverboy paid 4 my drink cause he's soo sweet like that. *MUAH!* hmmm...then my cell phone wasn't workin and ever since then....my night went hella shitty. well,....not TOTALLY. Aaron and i had 1 good time and then it got bad after that. we 1st had 2 go 2 a pay phone and call my mom....that went ok. and when i started huggin Aaron cause i was all scared....and some how....we sent a vibe down Aaron's pants and into his pocket where my phone was...and i got connection back. i got so happy that i kissed my baby up and i was juss all happy. we got back into the hotel and did our thang....then Laura called :-\. evidently....my mom had called Laura's house and umm yeah....i wasn't there obviously. so, Bob took a long time juss 2 tell my mom that i was in the shower and that PISSED my parents off because she took so long 2 respond. then...umm...yes. i called my mom and dad and all hell broke loose. i really don't wanna journal about what happened because...i juss don't wanna. i'll juss say....that i ended up having 2 leave my baby :'(. that was the worst feeling in the world. i didn't even get 2 give him the good bye kiss that i wanted 2 give him. that was it. he was gone....outta sight. i got 2 Laura's house....and all i did was cry. i had nothing left ne more. my baby was not near and i was cold and lonely. i will never be able 2 describe how i felt w/o having Aaron around. it was probably the worst, coldest feeling EVER. he was basically attached 2 me for 2 days and then all of the sudden....havin the love of ur life ripped away from u.....it hurts :'(. i miss him sooo much...and iono what 2 do. i can't sleep @ night....all i do is cry. this w/e was the seriously....no doubt about it....the BEST time in my life. being w/ Aaron....wow. i have NEVER EVER been so in love w/ some 1 b4. b4 Aaron came....i was juss like..."yeah...i love him and i wanna be w/ him." but now.....i can't tell ne 1 how i feel. i'm soooo freakin in love w/ him....that i can't even call it "i'm in love w/ Aaron" because its MORE than that. its an AMAZING feeling and i hope it NEVER EVER EVER goes away. having Laura tell me that she thinks Aaron and i r the cutest thing ever.....her tellin me that Aaron is soooo sweet....and having her tell me 2 "keep him" makes me feel so good. Aaron Baby...there's NO doubt in my mind that i'm going 2 be w/ u 4ever and marry you. ur all i want and u really proved ur love 4 me this w/e. i'm NEVER going 2 4get our times 2gether and i juss don't know what i'm gonna do w/o u 4 so long. its gonna be the hardest thing i'm gonna go through in life. I LOVE YOU AARON PAUL DAVIS.......I COULDN'T ASK FOR ANYTHING MORE PERFECT. be my handsome baby 4ever. i love you

**10/10/2003 - 10/12/2003**

i love you so much brittani my_love_bnh 2003-10-15 00:37 (link)

baby, i cant even describe to you how i felt this weekend. it was the absolute best weekend i ever had in my entire life. i love you so much brittani. i promise you i will never leave you and i will be yours for the rest of my life. theres no other girl that i am ever going to be with. you are everything that i have dreamed of. i know that when i leave for bootcamp for 3 months that it is going to be really hard for you. but it is also going to be really hard for me. but when i get back. im going to come to your prom. after prom im going to be sent off again to go to my job training which will be another few months. but baby i promise you this...i am going to be your forever, and when i come to cali to live there and when your in college im going to put that ring on your finger so we can be engaged. i love you so much baby. i decided that i think im going to do reserves instead of active duty because that will give me the chance to live pretty close to you and i will have more time to see you. i love you hunny. i always will forever. and there is not going to be one thing that is going to take us away from eachother. your love, always and forever, aaron (Reply to this) (Thread)