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Ew..kay now my parents are being asses. So yeah, I need out..and I thank Janie for saving me. I heart you. I get to go with her and Chris and whoever else down to...where ever. I kinda forget now. Oops? Ha okay. My parents were bitching at me..because I’m “playing games” with Christina and Chuck. What the fuck..no one realizes I’m like fucking wanting to kill myself over this. Okay..so people need to butt their asses out of my life.
If I chose to be stubborn, selfish, and self-centered for awhile. Just butt the fuck out.
....Christina is psychic and she reads minds or some shit. Maybe she can tell you all about me. And how I really am. It was really...really freaky she like knew me. A side no one knows about and whoa. I was scared. Shit..I can’t explain how I feel, but she can. So..uh ask her?
I’m sorry, I heard about the bad news today
a crowd of people around you
telling you it’s okay,
and everything happens for a reason
when you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know
it takes a lot to let go
every breath that you remember
pictures fade away but memories forever
an empty chair at all the tables
and I’ll be seeing you in all my days boiled down
but it’s better where you’re going anyway
I’m sorry I heard about the bad news today
it’s really hard to get through
tough times and long days
but it really just depends on the season
when you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know
it takes a lot to let go
every breath that you remember
pictures fade away but memories forever
an empty chair at all the tables
and I’ll be seeing you in all my days boiled down
for now we’ll say goodbye
we know it’s not the last time
I lost the best part of my day
but it’s better where you’re going anyway
an empty chair at all the tables
and I’ll be seeing you in all my days boiled down
for now we’ll say goodbye
we know it’s not the last time
I lost the best part of my day
this is the last thing I will remember
but it’s better where you’re going anyway
okay..it sucks when people know you better then you know yourself..it just really does. Janie and Christina, I’m jealous. What happens next?
Uh now that I’m thinking of Janie. I have a lot to thank you. You informed me of things..you just...I don’t know you helped me out today. I guess I never realized how much you really mean to me..you were always there for me. Thanks..I heart you.
Oh. Since I hate love and it needs to die..and I don’t know what it is and all...I heart people. Not love. Love is evil. It brings me nothing but pain..and yeah I just brought everyone else pain when they loved me and shit...bah.
Kay, Chuck is my best friend. He always was. I’d never hurt him unless I had to..hell normally I’d never hurt him. But I was killing myself inside. I don’t need commitment...I don’t know what I need..I don’t know me. Hell I just need time to myself to figure out who I am..then what love is..and then what I want.
Christina, also a good friend. Yeah I thought I loved her..I thought I loved Chuck. But yeah..I know nothing. Oh hell Christina still makes more sense. I like her way of putting it. Damnit. I suck with words too.
See yeah, that makes no sense to me. End. ew I took after Patrick
Pierre Fuckin’ Bouvier.
[I try to make sense lmao]
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 christensen_e
2003-08-16 22:37
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:o\ I hope you find yourself and try to feel better. We all don't like seeing you like this because we lurve ya Pierre. It's not your fault about what happened between you and Chuck, or you and Chrissy. You thought you were in love with two people, it happens. It's hard to deal with, but you just gotta do your best. As for the whole parents thing, trust me I'm going through the same thing right now. It sucks that your parents aren't there to support you and basically think everything you're doing with your life is fucked up, yeah. It's not their life, and they should have the decency and respect for their son or daughter to support them in what they do. That doesn't mean they have to approve, but they don't have to treat their child like they're nothing just because they don't like what decisions their child is making. It makes no sense, if you ask me.
Just remember, you have a lot of people who care about you and won't hate you, or treat you different because of what decisions you make. Just get better, it'll all work out.(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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