| Current mood: |  confused |
| Current music: | "enigma"//TRAPT |
You all know me..I'd cause myself pain over anyone else. Especially the people I love. I'd always be there to help a friend out and I'm an understanding guy. This is all what I'm told anyways..I hate breaking people's hearts and I feel I'm not worth it. Then again people fall in and out of love without control over it. I'm in love with two people. I'm married to one. I can't go on living the perfect life though when nothing seems right. I can't show off a fake smile anymore either. I kissed Cristina. I never was over her. I commited to marrying Chuck and it was a commitment I couldn't keep. I love him still. And I love her still. None of this is Christina's fault at all so don't try and make it hers. I'm causing them both hell right now probably...but trust me, it's not worse then what I'm causing myself.
So after breaking Chuck's heart and leaving him there crying which I really regret right now..I went out to drink. But something stopped me one of the promises I made him? So I wandered around..whever we were and ended up in the park. Christina and Lena found me at like six in the morning..I guess she remembered I liked parks? They found me under a bridge, but I wasn't sleeping. I couldn't sleep. I was in a trance and a different world. When they found me I was cold, crying and shaking. Lena took me back to our venue and I stayed in her car all morning..I don't know what I'm going to do two people want me..and I want them both. I know, I'm a jackass. But people have their opinions..can you please take yours and shove it up your ass? Thanks, that'd be great.
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