Nothing I call love can clear away the clouds (_shatteredx_) wrote, @ 2003-10-16 09:35:00

Current mood:	blah
Current music:	echo_trapt

heyyo
me&res are chilling in the library today...just updating the journals and shit like that.


my previous plans to making a huge post to patrick, failed i decided just to let go in my mind and not care, if i dont care why should i make the effort to even bring up old shit. it doesnt matter...but basically im giving up. he won. i cant fight with him anymore ive done it for so long, and its looking like a losing battle because i always tell him im sorry and then ask to be forgaven, so yea.


this morning i was listening to this song that once meant something, and it brought back good memories of last year like when everyone stayed after and they was the "crew" basically like me, tin, theresa, pat, amanda, kenny, sean. and everyone was content with each other, ya know. all the times that i would talk to a boy about everything that was going on and he actually cared to listen and help me, he knew the people that liked me more than i did so i guess in a way he was kinda looking out for me. good times. i wish it was the same but as you get older things get more complicated in life. I just dont want it to, i dont want to fight with these people for stupid reasons, and say things i dont mean out of anger, its too emotionally draining and im the one who usually ends up getting hurt in the long run. im sincerly sorry for any "drama" that has come up on my account, im sorry that i made things more difficult that it had to be, im sorry, i know you had told me that it doesnt matter to you how you treat me that you have 12 other friends, but can you honestly tell me that you dont care about anything that has gone on in the past year between us, if the answer is yes then ill leave it be..for the rest of the time that we are in school together, i promose you this.


<3 louis








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bleh evilinside727 2003-10-18 23:30 (link)

I used to stay after all the time and help you with your feelings and I knew alot about you and all that good stuff but I still aint partof the crew eh. I see how it is. I hope your happy with louis. I really do. But I've been hearing alot of things from alot of people that you say about me and its not neccesarily bad things, but...they hurt me. and it still hurts. And I love Jen so much it isnt even funny. I just want to die kim. Im ready to die. (Reply to this) (Thread)

Re: bleh xallseemslostx 2003-10-20 09:59 (link)

what are you talking about things you have been hearing that i have been saying? eric dont die, if you die then ill die then im sure other people will die after us. your a great person and shes a whore if she thinks kenny is better than you. i feel like screaming at her but...i cant...but if you havent noticed im in the same position as you just with different people. ill be here if you need me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	breakmyheartres 2003-10-31 21:28 (link)
	i remember that day you me and rick (Reply to this) (Thread)

	abrokenlie 2003-11-02 23:57 (link)
	no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no im so fucking sorry... = ( (Reply to this) (Thread)