;x (_jessicunt) wrote, @ 2003-04-04 10:23:00

Current mood:

depressed

after this weekend, im going to go away. im going to talk to my mom and see if i can go away for awhile. i know exactly where im going to go. i cant keep getting hurt, then thinking about cutting myself... i can't do that. i cant make her let me do that to me, but she does.

does she enjoy hurting me? this is the second fucking time she has and i'm sick of it. she has no idea how the hell i feel right now, and i bet she's laughing her ass off at how upset i am over her.

my friends told me that her girlfriend decided to bitch them out.. which is wrong, and that does piss me off. they're only trying to tell her how much i'm hurting inside and how much they don't like it. whatever though.

i give up. i give up on myself. i give up on everything.

	reanimated_song 2003-04-04 10:53 (link)
	As stupid and cliche as this may sound, I was there a few days ago. I was sick of being stepped on and walked on and always told I wasn't good enough and I decided to give up and stop attempting to explain myself only to have it fall on deaf ears. And I contemplated suicide. That happens alot lately. But I just felt like I should say, I feel you...on some level at least. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_jessicunt 2003-04-04 15:30 (link)
	thank you so much for caring. your words really helped me a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	less_than_three 2003-04-04 11:31 (link)
	Don't worry, everything will be ok. :/ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_jessicunt 2003-04-04 15:31 (link)
	thank you, gina. we really need to get together sometime soon. maybe you'll come to massachusetts over the summer. <333333333333333. love ya bunchies. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: less_than_three 2003-04-04 15:45 (link)
	Yeah, my mom wants me to come out for a week or so in the summer. Maybe we'll meet up then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_jessicunt 2003-04-04 15:53 (link)
	that would be awesome. <3 yes it would. i can not wait. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)