Joshua Scott Chasez (_jc_chasez_) wrote, @ 2003-07-29 19:07:00

Current mood:

calm

:glances in the mirror, frowning softly as he notes his hair thinning more, runs his fingers through his short curls, pulling his hand away to look at the small handfull of hair he pulled out, sighs and tosses it in the trash before walking back out of the bathroom to sit infront of his laptop:

These past few weeks have been hell. Not just for me either. Right now, I'm more angry than scared. I'm just angry that this had to happen, at least now. Lance and I should be enjoying the start of our life together as a married couple, not have to deal with this. I feel terrible for putting him through this.

It's just a small setback though...I have confidence now that it's not going to overpower me. I have too much to live for. My heart and soul, Lance...my daughter...Jen and all my friends and family. Things will be all right because I won't accept any other way.

Faith has been really sweet about it. She likes to sing to me, thinking it'll help me feel better. And it works too :nods and smiles softly: She has a good voice, I really think she will be a star when she is older.

Last night, my baby girl got married. I'm so happy for her and Ashton. Seriously, I'm glad she has him. He's a good guy. I love you both and damn...I know I said this a hundred times before, but Congratulations!

I'm glad I got to see her get married. They plan on having a second one but I probably won't be able to make it. This saturday, I leave for treatment. I'm not sure when I'll be back.

As a side note, I was on the Tom Green Show yesterday. :smirks: And yes, I beat my baby at the water challenge. No one can beat me :laughs softly: Sorry, Lance. You know I love you.

:smiles softly and clicks update before shutting his laptop, going back to the bed, climbing in:

	jennee_garth 2003-07-29 20:23 (link)
	You are going to be at the second one...I'm waiting until you're here and well. I wouldn't think of doing it without you..you're my maid of honor..*laughs* You know what I mean. You're going to be right beside me and nowhere else. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_jc_chasez_ 2003-07-30 04:26 (link)
	:smiles: that means alot to me baby girl :kisses your cheek: Do I have to wear a dress? :smirks some: (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jennee_garth 2003-07-30 07:11 (link)
	*cracks up* Can you imagine the looks on people's faces if you came walking out in a dress?? Oh boy, priceless.. *shakes head* No baby boy, I don't think your going to be wearing a dress. Just a tux *rae* hhmm...my baby boy in a tux...you'll hafe Lance drooling...*smirks* I love you ...now go get some rest... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luckybasstard 2003-07-29 21:46 (link)
	I feel terrible for putting him through this. *kisses you softly* None of it is your fault. Think of it as something that we can overcome together. And yes, I beat my baby at the water challenge. Little disappointed, yes, you beat me by like 30 seconds. But that's okay. That kind of lung capacity comes in handy. In hot tubs. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_jc_chasez_ 2003-07-30 04:24 (link)
	ooh..we should try it out :nods: (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: luckybasstard 2003-07-30 08:12 (link)
	*grins* See? Look at me, all optimistic-like. I find the good in everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jennee_garth 2003-07-30 08:49 (link)
	*stands and claps for lance being optimisitc* WOOOOOOOO I'm so proud of my baby boy and cutie pie..*winks* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chriskeeto 2003-07-30 04:29 (link)
	Lance...my daughter...Jen and all my friends and family psh i see how it is. don't even get a name mention. hmph (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jennee_garth 2003-07-30 08:50 (link)
	*hugs you* it's okay man...it's okay. You know he loves you.. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_jc_chasez_ 2003-07-30 13:01 (link)
	I love you man, you know that. I'm sorry, next post, whole paragraph dedicated to the wonderful-yet mostly insane-Chris Kirkpatrick (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chriskeeto 2003-07-30 16:33 (link)
	mostly certifiably insane *puffs out chest proudly* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)