| Current mood: |  lonely |
| Current music: | x. angel .x sarah machlachlan |
gar
if one more person tells me that i look like the person in my icon i think i will die.
gar, its obviously not me, although whoever she be-est is pretty and i wish it was
but alas.
grief dost consume you like a hug.
its really annoying, i want religion but yet *gar the room is tipping again*
i cant find any anywhere
i suppose i do wish to be a christian but GAR it is terribly hard
especially when your ex-mentors are nothing but sumbeach (hehe) hypocrites,
and i suppose everyone is but why does it all have to fall apart at once?
oh jesus there goes a cockroach.
and i sleep on the floor, durnit.
i want somebody to talk to right now and the only person on is selah.
gar.
i dont know what i want to talk about, anything really.
i feel so lonely all of a sudden
and unloved and stupid
*stupid teenage hormones*
and deserted
and i wish somebody,anybody would PLEASE get on or take off their away message
i havent talked to anyone all day except my family.
i want to talk about life, i want to talk about love, i want to talk about school,
i want to talk about food,
and whoever gets online next i will speak to like woah
their little ears will be freakin blown off
(internet wise that is)
why am i so lonely all of a sudden?
and why am i scared that something bad is about to happen?
and why am i so rude and bitchy?
and why dont i have any friends (except 9)?
and why does everyone fade away?
and why am i not afraid of commitment?
and why am i so moody?
and why cant anything stay the same?
and why cant we all take vacations?
and why am i so contradictory?
and why doesnt anyone want to talk to me?
and why cant i get over this writers block?
and why am i so sensitive?
and why wont anyone get on?
and why am i proud of who i am but at the same time SO DAMN LONELY all the time?
and why cant i make friends and keep them?
have i changed?
i miss my old friends, and i hate fighting with them
and i hate never making up even when i dont know what i did wrong
and why are there only 10 people on my buddy list?
i want to be who i am but why am i hated for it?
i hate to break down like this, but i am really curious.
i want to be able to say whatever i want and not lose people over it,
i need a sleepover and a hug or 12
why do i care so much?
what is love these days?
WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE GET ONLINE?
i miss everyone so much
i have lost so many people and right now it totally feels like my fault
i cant help being who i am and i love my 9 friends so much but
whatever happened to all my ex-best-friends and even just my good friends
and why is there still a wall no matter what
and when will things ever go back to how they used to be?
and why will nobody comment on this blurty, ever?
and why cant i stop saying "like"?
and why do i have this sinking feeling?
why arent i more intelligent
why cant i be interesting and outgoing
why am i so quiet and vapid and dull
i used to like me but now i feel repulsed at the very thought of myself
i have something wrong with me and i just cant see what it is.
so basically as a start,
i dont care about losing friends until moments like these when i only have 10 people i can talk to and none of them are around.
so as a start to ammending what is broken i am sorry for offending anyone with
my poser speech that got me suspended.
i didnt mean to hurt anyone i was just trying to state my feelings
and im not taking back what i said
im just saying sorry for all that i did to offend.
hopefully some friendships can be resolved,
now only 8888977 to go.
i want someone to talk to me and say that i am their best friend EVER and not just their sidekick and to carve our names into something hard and write "briana and ______ best friends forever".
i am such a loser and i am nobodys best friend,
too bad thats all i ever wanted
if i sing you are my voice,
briana
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 slavejoseph
2003-12-09 21:54
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brianapudgemuffinseverson im probably not who you want to hear from in a reply to this but i want you to know that i love you with all that i can waven though i im 14 and young and "stupid" i honestly with all of my heart love you and no matter what happens i will always feel the same i dont think you have changed at all from all that i can remember of you in 7 thgrade yeah i just wanted to let you know this again be you for who you are that will insure you that the people who love you will ALWAYS love you
i love you josephstreet
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2003-12-16 12:13
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aww thanks for listing me as a friend girl you rock!!!! and yes i am quite funny in french arnt i that is when im there haha jkjk im glad i can add some enjoyment to your day:) haha anyway yeah im always here for ya girl call me anytime:) 479 2332
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