Billy (_billy_martin_x) wrote, @ 2003-05-04 20:30:00

Perfect icon.

Yes, I know. "You look like crap in that icon Billy"

Well that's pretty much how i'm feeling right now. Like absolute, worthless crap. I feel like the last 6 years of my life just came crashing down on me. I feel like my heart is being ripped into a thousand pieces and no one gives a crap less.

Ack, it's not like anything has fucking changed.

I feel used Ben and all at the same time it was worth it. I don't know what to say.

Fuck. I am going to cry, Billy doesn't cry. wtf.

	xxbenjxx 2003-05-04 20:43 (link)
	Billy SERIOUSLY SHUT THE HELL UP ALRIGHT! YOURE JUST MAKINGEVERYONE FEEL SO DAMN SORRY FOR YOU I SWEAR GIVE IT UP NOW ITS OVER NO REASON TO KEEP ON TALKINGABOUT IT IF WERE NOT EVEN FRIENDS ANYMORE (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_billy_martin_x 2003-05-04 20:48 (link)
	Holy fuck. GO TO HELL Wtf, once Benji is happy everyone else, DROP DEAD Fuck you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	xxbenjxx 2003-05-04 21:10 (link)
	thats not the case at all and you know it billy. geez im sorry okay? but i guess if you're acting this way then we can ever be friends this was great until you did a total 180 on me..thanks alot really. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_billy_martin_x 2003-05-04 21:21 (link)
	Yes Ben, it's all my fault. Let's just end this with that. II did the 180. I'm Over exaggerating. Whatever. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	xxbenjxx 2003-05-04 21:29 (link)
	You know what. Maybe this is my fault.. maybe im the one who changed..maybe im the one who did the 180 and whos over exaggerating.. i think i am.. Sorry im putting this all on you when its so obviously its all on me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_billy_martin_x 2003-05-04 21:41 (link)
	You know i've tried so hard to be there for you. To be the one who gives you advice. For awhile it worked, but I can't sit here and listen to you talk about him anymore. I have all these feelings for you that I have been keeping bottled inside, yea we play flirt, it was serious on my side bro. But i can't do it anymore, it hurts too much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

xxbenjxx 2003-05-04 21:55 (link)

i dont talk about him to you a lot and you know it.. and i really thought you were play flirting i didnt even know at all until just now billy. im really sorry i have to put you through this, im not gonna talk to you about what im going through anymore if thats what you dont wanna hear okay. im just..really sorry ..thats all i can say to you and i hope you forgive me because being not friends with you anymore is impossible for both of us and you know it. (Reply to this) (Thread)

_billy_martin_x 2003-05-04 22:03 (link)

Yes you did. I'm not asshole enough to dig into my log and post shit here. Well if you thought the flirting was just playing, what about *looks at you seriously* Was that just playing for you? That's just the thing. I want to know what's going on with you, your my best friend. But at the same time i am jealous, as all hell. And i've liked you for so long, it just...hurts. I feel like an asshole not being able to be there for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)