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which i usually don't do. so here goes; theres this wonderful guy in my life right now, someone who i completely trust with my heart, someone im sure just wont throw it on the ground and stomp on it 102641238 times. someone.. (yes you know you are so shush).. perfect. ahhh..hes so funny, and fun to be with none the less. and hes so..nice! you just dont find a nice, funny, fun, perfect guy everyday mk. pierres one in a million.. hes unbelievable. I could just like sit there and talk and talk for hours with him. he listens to me. he cares when i go into my emo moods. and he protects me from alyssas sword. and he stood up for me when alyssa was yelling at me today for trying to make her turn back to normal. I can joke around with the guy, and be totally serious with him. he has an immature and a mature side to him and he knows when he has to be serious and when not to be. I love that most about him. Hes completely down to earth and i get this butterfly feeling in my stomach, whenever im with him. Or when I see him walking up to me, or when he holds me, i cant fight the smile on my face. Its hard to be upset for more than a minute with him he just makes everything better. Tours better now that hes "stalking" me. lol I don't get so upset anymore or hate being there as much! I got Pierre and Jada there. They both make me so happy. I can tell Jada likes him too. She got all bouncey when she met him. It was so adorable I loved it. So yes tour, only like a month more to go till our next break yippee! i think? i don't keep track anymore. sometimes i dont even know what city i'm in. Fame is really fucking over-rated. The simple things in life make you so much happier. Honestly, I don't care about the money, or the records, I mean I love my job like hell but this is all going really fast, really really fast. I miss the nights when we would play little shows, we were closer to the fans. And I didn't get bras thrown at me 24/7. wow, its just all flying by me. I know that soon, some new band is gonna take our spot in the 'limelight' and we will be pushed out of it. and forgotten about. So I know I should enjoy it while I can. But I'm busy caring about my own outside life, outside of the lights, the stage, the fans, the mic, the band. Even though bens with my 24/7 and thats all right because i love benny. hes been there since we were youngins. And Alyssa and Jessi, I feel like we're all getting close again, back to our wild crazy self. I feel everythings getting normal again. I can finally breathe. I don't feel a million things falling down on my back at one time anymore. except for the tour thats pretty stressful. But other than that everything seems just peachy keen. I would update about what happened with Tyson, and What Happened when he found out I had feelings for Pierre, but its a very sensitive subject and it still makes my stomach twist thinking about it. He only wants the best for me. So I guess what I'm doing is best. Its so funny, you think that the person your with is ALWAYS the one, that your going to be together forever, that your going to get married one day, have a happy life and two kids and a white pickit fence with a dog named fido, doesn't always goes exactly as planned. Someone else comes into your life, and you wonder, who do I see standing next to me watching our two kids and dog play in our yard with the white picket fence? you just gotta figure that out on your own. I don't exactly quite get the hang of this love thing, but i do think im going in the right direction, and i pray this time i don't get hurt. this turned out longer than i expected, good night, --amy oh and sup to jeff my advice buddy. I can talk to that kid about anything! hes been there even though we only talked for the first time like what 3, 4 days ago!?<3333 JEFFY!
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