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I dont want to forget this, I don't want to forget.
She talked to me....she fucking talked to me!! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME! She sat by Rhea like she does everyday after we have lunch and we finally talked. Although she was talking to me about this one broad and then going to IU it was still talking. She usually ignores me or gets pissed if I try to talk to her. I tried to act like I didn't really care that we were talking but oh fuck I did, and then I told her to shake my hand goodbye and she did. Then Ryan looked at me and I looked at right and I started crying and I said, "I waited 6 months just to hear her breath out purely." She did....she talked to me and it means the fucking world to me and everyone is like christ why the hell are you so happy and I couldn't stop smiling and I feel so FUCKING wonderful. Just keep this up please, just keep me alive...exsisting if you will. Maybe it was me actually sticking up for myself the last time we talked that she is talking to me. Seeing that I'm not going to kiss her ass anymore. Oh you are everything in the world to me, please don't let this fade away..please remember me, remember my name. Oh god, thank you for this day...thank you for letting me stop holding my breath, even if it's for a little bit. I'm crying, I'm so