| Current mood: |  frustrated |
| Current music: | Mi Mancherai (Il Postino) |
Born To Cram and Disappointments
Yup, I'm actually in cram mode right now and I guess I will remain to be in that mode for the rest of the week. Just imagine, there will be final exams for all my subjects. Actually, I have tried to schedule my study the week before. However the stress I experienced from the paper load I had last week stopped me from doing so. Instead, I resorted to a much needed rest since I was at the point of collapsing.
Well, guess I was really born to cram. In spite of the fact that I always want to be as organized and as prepared in the earliest time possible, things always end up this way. I guess I really work better under pressure.
Lots of things happened over the week. Just want this term to end and it's Bacolod for me! Just love napoleones! Hehehe. However, it was not like last year. This year was quite a disappointment. For this concert tour, we are going to sing the same songs we had in our last concert at CCP with some additions. All the songs that I had in the last major concert were assigned to others except one which was I liked the least. The rest were given to new members. As for the additional songs, our section head failed to assign any of the songs to me. In other words, though their songs in the last concert were also assigned to some new members, they also had their share in the new songs.
I'm not acting like a primadonna here. Just like everything to be fair. I know that I can also sing the new songs that were added. I am fully aware of my abilities and weaknesses. What's more frustrating is that now that we're practicing, our section head is having a hard time singing the new songs that he technically assigned to himself. Then he goes to me for comments and tips on how to reach those high notes. The nerve! All I'm asking for is fairness. Why don't they hold auditions? Actually we had auditions but the songs were also preassigned. DUH!
I'm not saying that they are not as competent as me when it comes to singing. All I'm saying is there are songs that will fit one's voice type. In holding fair auditions, the selected panel will be able to assess which song sounds better with a singer. Thus, this makes the entire process objective.
But you know, it seems that I don't have the strength to complain. One is the section head is actually a kind person and is a friend of mine. Plus, I don't want to sound like I'm a prima donna demanding for songs. But still, the truth remains that things are not being fair.
It's my last year in the orchestra anyway...
Guess need to get back to my studies. Just writing this entry makes my blood boil!
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