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Pops Concert Part 2
Aanhin mo ang pinaghirapan mo if you have no one to share it with. Ganiyan yung na feel during the last major concert. Sure, I felt accomplished upon knowing it was one of the orchestra's best concerts. However, I was really disappointed with the attendance of people from my bloc. Tatlo lang po pumunta - si dianne, menen and chesca.
Needless siguro to say na na hurt ako kasi I was really expecting more people to come. Marami naman may alam na it was my last concert with pops plus they know that I have given a lot sa concert na to...considering that I was involved in almost every aspect of the show. When I was inviting them, nahirapan na ko. React kagad - "ang layo...maganda ba yan...mahal naman ticket...pano kami punta diyan...dami ko ginagawa...nyek di naman ako nanonood ng mga ganiyan." At first, I thought na jokes lang...kasi ganun naman talaga magbiruan sa block. Pinilit kong isipin na biro lang kasi sa totoo lang na hurt na ako at that time. Galing kasi ako lagi ng rehearsals...pagod, walang boses, and may colds...tapos biglang ganun ang dadatnan ko. So todo invite pa rin ako...todo lambing na nga ang appropriate term...sinuyo ko na sila manood. Pero same reactions pa rin.
Pero umasa pa rin ako...probably kasalanan ko din...sana I could have been more realistic. Iba kasi tingin ko sa bloc...walang iwanan...laging nagtutulungan...suportahan. Dahil busy na ako sa rehearsals, i let the others decide na lang kung gusto talaga nila. Nagbigay na rin ako ng references in terms of how to get there and where to buy tickets.
Dumating yung concert, tatlo lang ang nakapunta. Buti na lang dami kong relatives na pumunta pero siyempre iba pa rin ang presence ng barkada. When I was performing on stage, I kept on looking at the seats but no familiar faces were in sight except sa tatlong bukod tanging taong pumunta. Umasa pa rin ako...baka na late lang...i expected na may papasok na maingay at naghahanap kung saan pa pwde umupo. But nobody came. I was waiting for shrieks and cheers coming from familiar voices. But I didn't hear anything.
Buti na lang may nag cheer pa rin sa kin. Na appreciate yung ginawa ko on stage. Kaya di naman ako malungkot talaga during the concert. Pero after the concert dun ko lang na feel yung pain. Nainggit ako dun sa iba kasi kumpleto circle of friends nila to give their support.
When I invited people to watch the concert, I was not literally selling concert tickets. I was asking for support na usually naman ginagawa ng magkakaibigan. I was asking for people to appreciate and see what I have labored for months that made me neglect my studies, my health, and myself. Fine, malayo nga...mahal nga ticket...pero nakaabot na tayo mas malayo pa sa AFP...bumili na tayo ng ticket na mas mahal dun I'm sure of that. Hanggang ngayon di ko alam kung bakit. Sabi nga nila...if there's a will, there's a way. Lahat naman ng gusto nagagawan ng paraan.
Nakita ko yung iba nung Monday after the concert, nag apologize at sabi wag ka na magalit Jigs...eto naman di lang kami nakanood ng concert. Di naman panonood ang nagkulang. Madami nanood at naka appreciate ng ginawa ko. Ang nawala sa kin ung suporta from my so-called friends.
So let me have this opportunity to thank the people who went...my family...relatives ko...sina Ninang Med and Tito Doy...ang best kong si Karen na kailanman di ako iniwan...si Chesca na binitbit si Cynthia to cheer for me...to my thesis mates Dianne and Menen with Win Win...thank you for your presence sa concert. Your presence made me feel important dahil binigyan niyo ng importansya ang isang bagay na pinaghirapan ko talaga. Kung alam niyo lang kung ano pinagdaanan ko dito, malalaman niyo kung gaano yung pagpapahalaga ko sa pagpunta niyo.
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