| Current mood: |  restless |
| Current music: | The Ataris-Boys of Summer |
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I can't believe this. It's crazy... this whole 'it being September and my having to go back to school' thing. I already feel sick. I'm so stressed; I'm just a mess, and school hasn't even started yet. I'm so miserable and depressed during the school year. Summer was so liberating. I forgot what it was like to feel pressured and have so much stress to deal with. It isn't fair. I shouldn't have to give up that feeling. I hate school. >.< I had to study today. I realized that I'd completely forgotten about my vocabulary list. I looked at the front of the packet, and it said that our test would be the first week of school. There are exactly 100 words, so I have about two days to memorize them, which wouldn't be too bad if I felt like I'd accomplished anything with my studying today, but I can't concentrate. I also realized that there was background information on both authors that I had to memorize, so I need to do all that tomorrow... my last day of summer vacation. I can't wait until September is over... I can't stand having to start over like this. Studying is my least favorite task in the world. I can't make myself do it... especially not in summer. I had so many things that I wanted to get done tomorrow, but I suppose that school comes before my own pleasure. I just have to tell myself how angry I'm going to be if I let myself slack off like I did last year. I let too many small things get to me. Sometimes I don't know how I got this far, how I managed not killing myself out of frustration. I really need to not be my own worst enemy. I need to calm down. I should just get up really early tomorrow and do everything first thing in the morning... or something.. yeah.
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