why do memories of the past hurt so badly when ur trying to escape ur past? its not like things were perfect back then or anything hell things were shitty but god at least then i had the people i needed and i knew that if i were to fall i would be picked up by the angels who surrounded me...
but now wat?? wat do i have? A BEST FRIEND IN ASIA?? A BEST FRIEND WHO I DUNT TALK TO?? A BEST FRIEND WHO IS SO DEPRESSED AND I CANT DO SHIT TO HELP HIM?? AND A (ex)BOYFRIEND WHO I DUNT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE??
i had more then i thought i did back then!! i thought i was alone... i didnt know the meaning of lonlieness then... well at least not like this!! i dunt want to be here but i cant think of anywhere else i would care enough about going to that i would even get outta my chair to go to... my head hurts my tummy hurts MY FUCKING HEART HURTS.. MY BRAIN HURTS!!