I want to Fuckin Die!!!!!!
I swear I think my life is a piece of shit. Let me tell you all about it... here we go.....My ex-friend ashley slaughter that I have known for about 4 or 5 years now is a back stabbing little two faced bitch who thinks everyone likes her. She lied to me about alot of things and has kept things from me. It was her fault why me and danny always broke up, she would change me when I hung out with her and I would act like a bitch towards him or she would put things in my head about him and made me think less of him. She has spread rumors about me and my family and friends. That girl has the biggest fuckin mouth ever, she can't keep a secret no matter what, even if its a really serious topic. She is a jesus loving little prep who needs to die. Another fucked up thing about my life is that I wish my parents were still together cause I live with my mom and she is never around, she is always at work. She doesn't have any time to spend with me and to tell you the truth she never even wanted to have me. My father made her have me and I am nothing, I am not talented, I dont have a clue on what I want to be when I grown up and I am failing with bad grades. I am going through depression and I'm not good enough for anyone. Danny had cheated on me with this girl named sara and it hurt me more than knowing I am an unwanted child. I didn't know what to do when I found out... I cried alot and couldn't sleep and I barely ate anything. My brothers live in michigan along with the rest of my family and they never call me alot to even say hi. My mom tries to turn me into something that I'm not, I want to be goth and she wants me to be her sweet little Jamie like I used to be. well I have changed and I am not gonna let her to this to me. I have had people tell me that I wasn't nothing compared to the person that they loved. That I couldnt ever be as good as the one they cared about. It hurts to know that my soul is a waste of energy and time. No one loves me and I can't be with danny because of the distance between us. Alonzo is out of my life and it hurts cause he made me love myself and he would always make my tears go away. Cory is doing god knows what, I never even talk to him anymore which he wouldnt want to anyways from what I hear. I cant go to rocket town this weekend because my mom says I will be unsupervised, I cant go to the mall by myself or the movies. My dad would let me if I lived with him but I dont want to leave my friends and go to georgia. I am so damaged by my x-boyfriends that I am afraid of falling in love again. well thats not half of what I have lived by but its just a book full of stories and I dont have time to explain all the shit I have been through.