|Current mood:|| angry|
|Current music:||WHO GIVES A FUCK!!!!!!!!!!|
WELL I'M DOING DANDY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear if I didnt have nieces and nephews I wouldnt be living right now. my life is nothing but shit, it will always be shit too. I want to go with danny more than life itself, I love him and my mom and everyone else has the idea that I am too young to fall in love... well let me ask you something, Who says you have to be at a certain age to fall in love??? I don't see it written down anywhere that you have to be so and so age. I am in love and I have been for a long time now. Along with my lonely love that I admire by myself I have exams, yep, they are hard as hell and I don't think I am ready to take them.. Quite frankly, I think I'm going to fail them, big time, and that will just bring my grade down. I am also dealing with my friend lauren's mom and her mom's boyfriend. Lauren told me that her mom went back and told her boyfriend travis that I was disrespecting her, which I wasn't, and he said that If I ever do that to him, her, or her mom that he will come over here and straighten me out... Now doesn't that sound like a threat??? straighten me out....... yes I think it is... well I'll tell you one thing I am not going to take his shit any longer. All the stupid cock sucker knows how to do is hit lauren and they are always keeping her inside of the house. They yell at her, she gets in trouble for even buying a necklace from hot topic.. that is stupid as hell, her parents need to seek help on how to raise children because that is not how you treat them. There are so many thing this week that are stressing me out to where I am going blank on everything I study.. I am so scared that I fail the exams and my grades go down even more.. That is a fear right now that I am trying to deal with but I cant do it with all this other shit in my mind. WHY dont I just die then I have no exams and no parents hating on me because of fucked up reasons and I wouldnt have to worry all the time about love and life... I just really want to die, life is not important to me anymore and I wish so badly that I was liked by more people.... and to add to it lauren's mom's boyfriend was asking lauren if I was having sex... how fucking stupid is he, That is my personal business that he just questioned and really its none of that motherfuckers business and I feel really humilated that a grown up would think that I am having sex at such a young age, knowing Im not ready for that commitement... I dont even want the thought of him thinking I am having sex, who is it for him to say I can or cant anyways.. hes not my father thank god for that.. he's a stupid low life that apparently doesnt know how to raise kids. and I am 15 and I know thats not a way to treat a kid, its cruel and unususal punishment everyday for lauren... she doesnt even want to go to her own home. thats bad if you ask me cause he is the one living with them, its not his house and he doesn pay the bills... If I were lauren I would knock the shit out of him and I know its an adult but he would deserve every bit of it and I wish I had the guts to speak my mind to him but I know his cry baby ass will tell my mom and I'll get into trouble and thats just what he wants. I'll tell you, I told my dad about all this and told my dad that my mom wouldnt do anything about it, and he said if he travis keeps up then he'll come here from georgia and he will straighten travis out. I love my dad for that, my mom is just a bitch and she didnt say anything when I told er, she is basically on his side. O well his day will come................