|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||Dope-- " die motherfucker die"|
I feel like cutting my wrists!!!!!
I have a thing called depression. I have it so bad that I don't even feel like living anymore. It hurts, and man does it. No pain could be as bad and hurtful as the pain called love. I went through alot of guys when I was alittle younger and There was this particular dude named danny. I wasn't interested in him alot and I chose his friend cory instead but the thing is that I thought I loved cory. I don't think I did because cory had hurt me and yes it hurt but It wasnt like the pain danny put me through, Danny's feels like my heart was taken out and tortured. Cory's was like someone punched me and It was hard to get over. Nothing has happened recently though, I tried tellin danny how I felt and of course it doesnt matter to him. I am struggling in school because of this stupid shit and I'm tired of it. I am always tired and exhausted and I dont even do anything but cry or sleep. If I could have one wish, I would wish for me and danny to one day get married and have children and have the best life ever. No one would fight and we would be a loving and caring close family. We would laugh together and talk through hard times. Thats a wish I would only want. Maybe Im just not good enough, I have been told that but I didn't want to believe it... Now I am starting to believe everything danny has said I am.