|Current mood:|| depressed|
|Current music:||"Hold On" by GC!!! thatz jus what i needa do!|
DePrEsSeD... -n- o dont know why.....
I feel like shit and i dont know why... and well, itz kinda wierd. When i get depressed i eat, then i eat SO much that i fell like im too fat, then i stop eating all together. Then all i do day in day out is sleep. I dont know what to do. Then sometimes i do stupid things... if you know what i mean. This happens every now and then, and i dont know what to do. Last night when i took a shower i put the heat on steamy hot, and i just let it run down my back, just so all the pain will go away. But sometimes it doesnt work... :( I have no fuckin idea what to do... HELP!!! Other than that, everything is fine. I think i made up my mind, and im goin to live with my mom and her fiance in Maine at the end of this summer.... I'm sorry everbody, exspecially Zach. Ya know i love ya'll and i deff. wont loose touch. Someone will have to shoot me before i ever forget ya'll. Well, that's all i have to say, so i'm just gunna do my shout outs now....
Zach: I love you, and there is sumthin i have 2 tell u, but i dont kno how i can tell u in person.... So here, im jus gunna type it in my blurty. U may think im crazy, but i have NEVER felt this way with NEone... i LOVE you SOOOO much, that words cant even explain. I dont want 2 loose you, and i wish i could jus stay here in Danvers, but u -n- i both now that thatz not possible... -n- living wit my Dad isnt the best thing for me, so im betta off living wit my mom. I jus want u 2 kno that i love u, -n- i'll love u NO MATTER WHAT!!! But thatz not what i want 2 tell u.... the thing i want 2 tell u is more than that. I really feel that ur the one, -n- i only said that bout one other person ((Steve)) -n- we're not 2gether cuz of his mom, but im happi that we went our separate was, cuz then i woulda neva found out how truely wonderful u r, i mean u saved my life, -n- if it wasnt for u, i might not b here 2dai. And im very thankful 4 that. i think u kno me betta than i kno myself, but thatz OK, cuz i kno u betta than u kno urself. I dont kno what i would do without u... so that is y i.... want 2 marry u! i never said this to NEbody else ((in a serious way)). I dont kno how 2 tell u in person, so i hope u read this. Have u ever seen 'That 70's Show'??? I want 2 b lyk Eric -n- Donna!!! Jus me -n- u, 4 eva!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!
Nora: Swistaz for lyf! lolz!!! im glad were good friendz again, i dont kno if i ever told u that... so here! i hope that nothin will get in the way of our friendship ever again... Love ya... XoXo ***BiG kIsSeZ!***
Jacky: MY TWIN!!! We realli needa hang lyk we use 2!!! Love ya... XoXo ***BiG kIsSeZ!***
Bobby: ur gunna have NO balls if u continue 2 mess wit me... u dnt wanna get on my bad side... ask NEbody! BTW, i DO have a duaghter!!!!
Those r all my shout outz 4 2night... ChOw!!!