I've been working a lot lately. Been spending a lot of time on my site. It helps keep my mind off of him. I hurt him earlier. I didn't mean to. I'm just not a mean person. I can't just push someone out of my life. There would be too many questions left unanswered. And feeling forced into that, would create a grudge. I love him more than anything. I don't want to hold something against him. That's a problem between them. I'm already in the middle, don't make me choose a side. You know that if it came down to it, I'd chose you; but don't be the one to make me decide.
I love you. And I'm sorry for being a bitch. I just.....I've always said that if a guy made his girlfriend choose between him or a friend, without a good reason, then it's a bad thing. And that's what I felt you were doing. I'm sorry. But don't pull me into the problem you have with him.
I assure you, we're not going to hang out. I rarely speak with him. I don't IM him. I don't even really consider him a friend. But most importantly, I don't have any romantic feelings for him. You're the only one I love. The only person I can imagine myself with. You're the only one I want. I love you more than anything. The last thing I want to do is hurt you or make you mad. I'm sorry. I don't know what to say and even if I did, I doubt I'd be able to form the words. I just....I love you....more than anything.