| Current mood: |  angry |
| Current music: | the IM sound..my head pounding |
well today me and ash were talkin about guys:
xStatic Visi0n: im nasty,,he can get like 10times better
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no ur not nasty
xStatic Visi0n: i think i am
xStatic Visi0n: i think
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no ur not
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no
xStatic Visi0n: then why dont i have a bf..eh???
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: cuz u talk too much crap about urself
xStatic Visi0n: :-X
xStatic Visi0n: i wonder WHY
xStatic Visi0n: cuz people walk all over me
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: only me
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: lol
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: jp
xStatic Visi0n: well i mean
xStatic Visi0n: ughh
xStatic Visi0n: :'(
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: its ok
xStatic Visi0n: i wanna DIEEEE cuz i can never make no 1 happy
xStatic Visi0n: NO ONEE
xStatic Visi0n: not good enuf..
xStatic Visi0n: for anyone
xStatic Visi0n: not jamie
xStatic Visi0n: or pat
xStatic Visi0n: no one
xStatic Visi0n: not shawn
xStatic Visi0n: no one
xStatic Visi0n: oh and not vinny ether
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: thats exactly what i am talkin bout
xStatic Visi0n: whattt
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: look at everything u just wrote
xStatic Visi0n: well god damn..
xStatic Visi0n: its true
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no its not
xStatic Visi0n: im brutaly honest with myself
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: oic
xStatic Visi0n: well
xStatic Visi0n: idk
xStatic Visi0n: now im pissed at myself..god damn
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: y/
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: ?>
xStatic Visi0n: b/c what u said makes sense. but i cant help being mad at myself. i do everything wrong so ppl walk all over me
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: thats not true
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: u just make urself vunerable
xStatic Visi0n: how
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: u just do
xStatic Visi0n: tell em how
xStatic Visi0n: *me
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: u just talk so much crap bout urself it makes u sound like ur suicidal like paul said he wants to go out with u but u talk so much crap about urself and talkin bout suicide please don't tell him i said taht nikki please
xStatic Visi0n: okay finnnne
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: i was just saying
xStatic Visi0n: i guess but i dont mean to talk
xStatic Visi0n: but okay im gonna stop talkin cuz u dont care.,.no one does so its pointless
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: no what happend
xStatic Visi0n: okay. if i really need to explain..
xStatic Visi0n: okay..heres my problem. I hate myself..im ugly and fat. so i talk shyt about myself. but i dont mean to talk shyt aboubt me. and i could just not talk about it at all but i think i'll go crazy if i dont b/c i barely talk to anyone about any of my problems bcuz idk..i just dont and then once all this shyt in my mind overflows i have a mental breakdown and think about suicide
xStatic Visi0n: there.
BaNaNaMuFiN9786: well u shouldn't
so all my secrets are out..all of them..i cant hide anymore..people have got to know the real me..but if they do i will lose all my friends..the reall me is dark and depressed..the real nikki is the one you all chose not to see..
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