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merry FUCKEN christmas .... [*eve*]
wow.. i really hate christmas.. i think oh all this bullshit will go away n maybe christmas day will b better wen i get my gifts.. fuck no... i asked for like 3 things n i didn't get neof them.. i got 7 sucky things.. n i didn't want neof them n im not gunna use neof them.. n OH YEH my presents weren't even fucken wrapped.. like goddd ...... i need clothes soooo bad n like .. were jus gunna b fucken gay n not get elyse ne.. wtf is this... i asked for a plain silver chain for this pendent my aunt n uncle n cuzins gave me for easter.. but could i get that.. no of course not.. my mom always assumes she nos wut i want.. she doesnt.. she gets a necklace wit sumthing on it.. n regular earrings.. SINCE WEN THE FUCK DO I WEAR REGULAR EARRINGS?!?! god damnit i fucken don't :'( its not even about the gifts.. i prolly wouldn't b so concedied n ungrateful.. but like my family fought everysingle day.. n christmas eve was jus plain out horrible.. n it put me in a bad mood... i was called selfish, inconsiderate.. n all these other things i rly dun want to put in here.. but its soo fucken funny how i did the most in the house.. but yet my one bro could put one thing out n got bac to gettin ready *he was gettin ready for like 3 hours.. wtf does he hafta do* and my mom didn't yell at him b/c he did something.. this is by far the worst christmas.. god i wanna go bac to school.. i hate my family.. they hate me too.. they are so mean to me n sit here n call me names n shit n i can't take it.. but the christmas eve party was ok.. i was in a bad mood b/c the fucken family n my grandma yelled at me b/c my mom hadda have the fucken big mouth n say shit to my grandma... god i wish she new wut went on... but carolyn n kt n my cousins came over.. that put me outta my bad mood for a while.. but wen they left my mom n dad started fucken arugin again.. like omg i jus sat here n cried n all my presents were like sittin rite next to me.. i wanted to sleep n jus not get up today but i jus like got up.. ugh this sucks.. i rly dislike christmas now.. a lot.. i think all this fightin will die down n everyone will b happy.. but can it.. no of course not.. everyone jus hasta fight.. its all my mom.. she thinks she the perfect person in the world wen shes the most unperfect bitch.. n i think one of my parents is gunna leave.. n seriously i wouldn't mind b/c i can't stand this fighting.. asdf;,gnajlkfgn i can't fucken stop crying.. :'( .. n to neone that was goen to the show on the 27th.. of course it gets cancelled.. it was like so nice to find out at this time.. i was really like relayin on that night to have like fun n shit...... FUCKEN HATE MY LIFEEEEEEEE .. wen my mom sed christmas was gunna b different this yr.. i figured out how.. it was gunna b horrible n it was.. i love it how everyones gunna go bac to school wearin thier new clothes.. NOPE not mEE im goen bac wearin the same fucken shit as b4.. n my clothes r soo shitty n like yeah i barely have enough to get thru the week.. im not sure if my mom understands that or no? i guess not.. obviously not.. wtf m i talken about .. i can only have certain kinda cookies.. i ask for peanut butter not chocolate.. the fucken dipshit gets chococlate .. omgg someone kill me now so i don't have to go on with this horrible day.. god im goen to my aunts n sleepin. im not dealin with this.. my moms gunna wake up today n act like nothings wrong.. fuck no i will bitch to her n i will prolly get told im ungrateful n don't deserve nething i got... well rly i dun care take it all away.. soo if i care b/c its gunna sit in my room neway :'( everything is jus startin to get soo hilarious at how horrible everything is.. god.. christina.. it jus cracks me uppp OH MAN IT JUS CRACKS ME UPP... haha wow my mom buys a sports bra wen i told her a few weeks ago I DON"T WEAR SPORTS BRASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.. n she goes oh u dont? omg u fucken douche bag.. omg omg omg omg omg i hate it i hate it i hate it i can't stop crying.. Merry Fucken Christmas to everyone n i hope ur christmas wasn't as horrible as mine.. <\3 all i want is for sumone to like me .. but nope that can't happen either b/c im ugly n all .. yeh thats rite.. im ugly <\3 .. goodbye .. i have so much more to say but if i say it i will like get rly upset n maybe sum other ppl too so lets no get started..
The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!
For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Our dying day
Of our dying!!!
i love him so much <\3
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