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: (..why?!
yea..today def sucked..well at least at night it did..i got up at like 9 30 am cuz i thought i was goin to the beach with Dan but no his ass woke up at like 12 when it wasnt even worth going. so yea he took me to the park and we played tennis. i told his ass i couldnt play but he made me neway and i sucked real bad. oops it was funny tho i wouldnt run after the ball or anythin i just stood there. then we went for a lil nature walk and then he took me to the mall yay. but i only had like 7 dollars and he borrowed 2 so make that 5. yea it was ok we just walked around. then his friends met up with us..these 2 chicks i think one of them liked him cuz they werent really talkin to me and didnt seem like they liked me. oh well what can u do. they didnt say bye to me either when we left. its ok tho i dont care.(he called me beautiful too but i doubt he meant it..cuz u knw im not.) after that he took me home cuz my mom was being mean and said i could only be out for a couple of hours..by then it had been like 3 hours. so he dropped me off home..and tried to kiss me but i was like yea ur gunna go and hook up with some other chicks aka megan.. and try to kiss me? f*Ck that i turned away. and hes like thats not fair..right cuz its fair to me that i like u and u hit up other chicks when im not around..whats with guys these days! oh well he grabbed my head neway and kissed me! mean! lol jp oh well...then bill called me and he wanted to hang out so he came over we watched pirates of the caribbean..he was all like holding my hand and sh*T im like ok..i thought we were just friends heRE. but then katy came then rachel and dave. we all went outside and dave went in the pool. let me say his hair was lookin might hot too. haha. jp i love u dave ur there to beat ppl up for me! yay. ok Bill left hes like i dont wanna be here;..he was sayin we were bein mean to him..right..w.e. i think he was weirded out that rachel and katy were there. but he could have been mature about it and stayed..weirdo. yea then Rachel left and Tj came over..and we hung out in my room . me and katy were both dancing and sH*T haha. it was funny. Joe was callin tj like crazy and he was sayin sh*T about me. i got on the fone with him and hes like i need room to breathe thats why im not talkin to u right now..im like r u fucking kidding me? bREATHE? why couldnt u take the hint when i said that to U..hes the one who called me in the beginning like crazy when we met..stayed outside my house for hours on end till morning came..told me to call all the time and wouldn let me get off the fone when i started calling him. hes like ur so far up my ass right now that if u spit it would come out of my mouth. fuck that yo..i call him when he tells me to so his BS about me blowing up his cell is his fault hes like i asked cuz i cared then..oh when was that..SATURdAY?! what a retard. hes a fucking MORon...hes like ok u wanna know why i started tlaking to u? cuz i heard u were a fuckin slut and i was gunna use the shit out of u...right he hung out with me and tlaked to me a lot at GA and i didnt even really show affection towards him. i wanted to be his friend the whole time..he knew i liked dan..then he comes up with that shit? right i even said im not gunna do shit with u and would u wait if u were my bf? hes like yea i would id wait for however long u wanted and he would also say im not all bout being a player and just trying to get u in bed i really like u i wanna be with u and blah blah. hes an idiot..when he told me that i wanted to die i gave the fone to TJ and ran into my room..broke down and cried. Tj was like u know he did like u hes talkin out of his ass right now. dont cry. yea JOes a loser..i told TJ i liked him too but why shud i like some1 after they said that..ugh it makes me sick cuz guys lie just to regain their dignity. it makes no sense when uve told a girl the complete opposite the whole time and theyve been waitin and never left but when i tell him i dont like him like that and i like some1 else its.."oh i was just trying to use u" replacing "i wanna be with one girl right now and settle down".guys are such assholes. for real..i REALLY wanted to be his friend but i should have let go a long time ago. maybe when he started calling me PYSChO?! hes the pyscho. im done with this i hate joe.
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Caro*
does he not know what his friendship was worth to me?...
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