i was going to a party last night but the host got sick! so yeah i was going to hang out with chris and my boyfriend but they were with a shit load of people and i stayed home. bascally because they were with someone i cant stand! damn that girl! so the night before last night i was on the phone with my boyfriend and i said 'guess what?' and yeah he asked 'what? and i said 'i love you' and he replied 'aw i love you too.' which for most girls that would be more than amazing. but for me i was thinking like 'why did it sound like JUST a reply?' i wasnt saying something like 'how are you?' i kinda wish he didnt say anything but now that i think about it, if he didnt say anything i would have been asking 'does he not love me?' i guess its hard to win with me. 'do i even believe him when he says it?' i kinda dont know but if i dont believe him, its okay cause that doesnt keep me from loving him. i want to believe him but its just a hard thing for me to do. i was told 'i love you' soo many times and each guy broke my heart. i just dont want to set myself up for that again. some people may understand, others may not.
I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU BUT ITS TOO HARD!