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The Writings of a Lost Soul (xlady_deathx) wrote,
@ 2003-07-29 12:23:00
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    Current mood: worried

    Oh joy
    Today is meh sister's birthday..yey for her. She's fucking 18 years old now. How stupid. She gets an I MAC because she is going to art school and needs it for the art programs. Thats stupid, I want a better computer.

    Oh, and for the record: I've never done drugs, nor did I slit my wrists last night. I haven't cut for over 4 weeks. I didnt do cocaine at Conor's party. I kind of write lies only because they are thoughts in my head. This is a venting journal---I'm suppose to vent. Venting to me is saying things that bother me, things that i'd like to do or things that I am thinking (despite the fact that they might be lies)

    I have had alcohol before. But just a little, never to get drunk.

    I don't feel like I need to vent much today, I just wanted to clear a few things up.

    I'm sorry for..."lying" but that was what I was thinking about when I wrote it.

    I have been feeling a tad more depressed than usual though...I'm gonna cut before I go on vaca. with Cilla.
    The only reason is because it's going to be hell with her and I need to remind myself that I already cut and I dont need to do it again for the rest of the vaca. She cuts too..psuedo depressed though. She never had a reason for cutting, so I can only assume she started because I was cutting long before her.

    I am also planning on cutting pretty deep before school starts. That is, if I am as depressed then as I am now.

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