|Current mood:|| pissed off|
|Current music:||plasticine- placebo|
dry your eyes
im dying for a fag i havent smoked for over 24 hours now and its killing me i really want one but i dont want to cos i will feel like i have failed and let jay and myself down. but i NEED one so so so so so so bad i have never felt this bad i hate it. there is nothing to do to keep myself from smoking and my backi is right there in front of me and i just cant do it cos i know how bad i would feel.
appart from that today all i did was go to college meet jay sit in the libary then go to english wich i discoverd was cancled so i went to the family planning clinc with kay so she could get one of them little coil things fitted but she didnt get it in the end then i came home and meet jess from school and then to her friend hazels and then home and then in search of weed to give me something to smoke and then to jjb and then jess went home and i went home , walked with dan , i havent seen him in ages and he was saying how he missed coming round and we spoke bout all the things we used to do its weird not seeing him cos we were such gd friends but ah well u cant keep in contact with everyone.