christmas began with a sore throat for me i first woke up around eight something but i think it may have been physically impossible for me to get out of bed at that point i wanted to be excited and go wake everyone up and open presents and make omlets for breakfast but it just didnt seem to work out that way christmas always blows for some reason or another so mom and joe at to sing at the ten oclock mass and got home at i suppose eleven something woke trav up and then eventually got me to crawl out of my cave i basically then laid on the couch with a cup of hot tea while opening presents with one hand and showing no enthuasism towards my gifts not that i didnt like them or didnt care but i just wanted to be asleep so badly that i couldnt care so then we put in its a wonderful life and around three went over to nans to eat which was probably the best meal ive had in a very long time and that to me is the best part about christmas after eating i basically just laid on nans couch it was a pretty low key holiday this year cathy will and molly wernt there and neither were jane and jon but it was pretty decent im basically just relieved that its over i just want to get back to school im already tired of working and i got decent money from christmas even though i know that wont actually last long i need to conserve and im really trying to get myself psyched up to do well this semester being that the last was probably to worst one ive had so far i need to make this one the best maybe that evens things out a little i dont know ugh grades part of me thinks that if i was just on my own then i would do better that you hold me down i dont know if thats completely true but meh i mean i blame you but i know that its mostly my fault well its just easier to put the blame on someone else as always i dont know why being home is so frustrating for me maybe because i feel restricted who knows im almost thinking about seeing if i can move in with jenn or something over the summer maybe i could convince mom that it would be a good trial run like moving away from home only not really since its only ten minutes away so i think im going to be picking bradley up and then going to scranton for new years i guess only time will tell how that whole scenario actually pans out in the meantime im just going to be working everyday for the next few days trying to make money save that up i just really want something in my life to be solid right now.
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