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Well today was fun. Or yesterday. I need to stop doing these posts at 2 in the morning..
Cause then I get confused as to what day it is.
Well okay..so yesterday i guess..yesterday i went to shells house. cause it was a surprise party for jill deas. like 8 of us were there. yeah so that was fun. ha me and jill were lighting these lei things on fire. very cool. and we watched secret window..and i feel so smart i was like..20 minutes into it.."is he a schitzo?" and michelle and me are just sitting there laughing cause i was actually right..oh woops if you just read that and you havent seen the movie just pretend you didnt. yeah..tomorow..ah fuck i mean today... theres another party @ shells. except like instead of 8 peopel they'll be like 70 or something. so it should be funner and all.
And TODAY..got it right..today im going to thee mall and buying another bathing suit. cause i want to. ha so whatever..and um what else..oh i have to pack.
Only 2 more days until I am lying on a beach in Saint Johns(Virgin Islands) which is in the Caribeans. I'll be there from Monday(the 5th) until the next thursday(the 15th). It'll be quite fun. And relaxing. And relaxed is exactly what I need to be now. Way to much to think about.
I'm really stressed. Can't exactly figure out why.
Ha oh well. When am I not stressed.
I should probably get some sleep.
Idk that doesn't seem very likley.
I wrote another poem..
So here it is..let me know what you think.
You always laughed
And your laugh made me happy
But I couldnt give you that power of being my happiness
So I'd call you immature
And the laugh would stop
You were always singing
Your voice was so soothing
But I couldnt let you calm me
So I'd tell you to be quiet
And say your voice annoyed me
Your brown eyes entranced me
The saddness in them ripped me apart
I wanted to take away your saddness
But I'd never admit that
I'd always say "I prefer blue"
You always confided in me
And I knew you trusted me
I loved having your trust
But I couldn't trust myself
So I told them all your secrets
You used to hold me in your arms
When nothing was going right
You made me feel so beautiful
But I don't deserve to be beautiful
So I pushed your arms away
And now your nowhere to be found
And I'm dying without you
But I can't let them know that
So I turn and smile
And act alive as I drown in regret*
Well nothing else happened really...So that's it..
She want's someone to see her
She needs to hear shes beautiful
Shes [b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l]
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