|Current mood:|| anxious|
|Current music:||AFI The Leaving Song Part One|
Hey everyone. First entry in a long time. I guess I just have a lot to express. My hatred of my father. I no longer consider him a dad. Never again. He has fucked up too many times and is never there when I truely need him. I can't take his drug abuse. Smoking and Drinking. It's enough. And I don't really care for ever seeing him again.
Other than that. I guess things are going pretty good. I'm getting rid of ALL my old clothes, throwing them out or giving them over to my mothers group home that she works at. This is the first time in my life where I have enough pants and shirts that I don't even have to do laundry for a week. I feel lucky. And definately greatful. My aunts helped me and my mom out A LOT the past few years when my father has been in the shadows. I still write songs. I want to start over though. I don't think I'll have a lot of friends this year. I need to pick up my standards and work harder. I've slacked off for years and I finally feel motivated enough to start. I'm sorry to thoughs from my school that I really do consider a friend and won't be able to talk to as often as I hope for. With me getting a job this year and then another one durring summer with driving in shit. Well, I'm gonna be busy. My mom says if I don't do good I can't drive either. ( Downfall of living with parents )
I've still been writting a lot of lyrics and songs. Not so many as I use to. But they still happen. I've found out the art of free writing lately. I usually like the results too.
I gotta new hobbie of collecting post cards of sunsets. I love them. I got one the other day of the sun setting and the sand.... god u know me and sand :-p lmao Other than that I don't know what else to say
School stards on the 2nd. 10 days left. Than sence we start school on a Thursday. First football game of the season is on Friday at Gill Stadium on Valley St. Thats exciting. I may go. One of my best friends from here is in colour gaurd so maybe :). Anyways first day of school should be amusing. Everyone but freshmen have to show up around 9 30 for homeroom. Freshmens get stuck going there at 7 45 because Orientation is usually the day before but the construction isn't done so their doing it the day of school. haha freshmen who have to get up early. Specially for me becuase my first class doesn't even start till like 8 45 becuase I have study first period ^_^ hehe. Sucks for the rest of ya.
Anyways I'ma go